EXAMS URGH
I'm totally in the exam mode, though I'm taking time off to blog about this haha I guess I felt compelled to write about my reflections so that I could look back at this post in the future as a reminder to myself.
Indeed, I'm used to the whole mundane cycle of "waking up, studying, eating lunch, studying, eating dinner, sleep" every single day. It feels as though I really don't have a life apart from studying. Yet, during this period of time, I find myself accumulating a lot of fears and anxieties in my heart, maybe because my law modules this year seem more demanding in terms of content and there are higher expectations of maintaining my grades in spite of securing a training contract. I guess this pressure has brought me close to moments of wallowing up in self-pity and threw me in the depths of "depression". There was brokenness in the process but yet there was some beauty in the breakdown because it made me realize how sovereign God is. Life's not going to be easy and many times the world would be against you and deceiving you into thinking "you can't do this", but it's really relying on God's strength that keeps you in this rat race and fighting for what you believe in.
So far, I've set through one paper and by God's grace, I've pulled through and I really thank God for his favor! Two more to go, you can do this rachel!!
Indeed, I'm used to the whole mundane cycle of "waking up, studying, eating lunch, studying, eating dinner, sleep" every single day. It feels as though I really don't have a life apart from studying. Yet, during this period of time, I find myself accumulating a lot of fears and anxieties in my heart, maybe because my law modules this year seem more demanding in terms of content and there are higher expectations of maintaining my grades in spite of securing a training contract. I guess this pressure has brought me close to moments of wallowing up in self-pity and threw me in the depths of "depression". There was brokenness in the process but yet there was some beauty in the breakdown because it made me realize how sovereign God is. Life's not going to be easy and many times the world would be against you and deceiving you into thinking "you can't do this", but it's really relying on God's strength that keeps you in this rat race and fighting for what you believe in.
So far, I've set through one paper and by God's grace, I've pulled through and I really thank God for his favor! Two more to go, you can do this rachel!!