so blessed I can't contain it
I am finally home.
Every moment spent on the plane today was liberating and I could barely keep the excitement that was bursting out of me. I found myself just looking back at my first year of university and coming face to face with quiet, humble enlightenments that I discovered about myself and about growing up. Growing up ain't that easy. Life just keeps on throwing me issues to deal with, one after another. I find myself at breaking points several times and try to find the light at the end of the tunnel to provide an escape. There were many things that I couldn't bring myself to confront because life wasn't just about rainbows and butterflies but compromise that moves me along.
Were there any regrets? Yes, there were a couple but it's all about moving along. I could now find the courage to do things I wouldn't have done before. I saw the world in different perspectives. I realised that some people try to portray themselves in a negative light initially and when you start to built up that friendship with them you actually see that they are very humble, honest and beautiful people whom I'm glad are my friends. I understood why people rather see people in a negative light first because the expectations are lower and when you start knowing the person on another deeper level, you start to see more beauty in it. Instead of seeing someone in a positive light and later finding hard to comprehend that the person isn't how you thought he/she would be, leaving you disappointed. But then again, it's still a hard thing for me to do. I find it more comforting to see people in a good light first. Maybe I've been disappointed along the way but I came to accept that everyone including me is imperfect.
When the wheels of the aeroplane hit the ground of Changi Airport and time progressed to the part where I reunited with my family, I was almost moved to tears while hugging my parents and sister. It was like a rush of love and warmth feeling from them and I guess that's why I missed home so much. Having my first Bar Chor Mee, after touch down, with my family was the happiest day of my life. I could not ask for more.
Once again, I can't wait for what's in store for me this summer- internships and loads of catching up with friends and family. My life is so blessed. Thank you God :)