I want your love and I want your revenge
My bff J and I are seriously having problems settling in right now. At first I was secretly living in the dorms with her, then we moved to a new apartment, and now I want to move again. We have to find people to take over our housing contract on campus and well as find people to take our contract off campus so we can move to another apartment.
Sounds seriously complicated eh?
Long story short: I had originally planned on transferring from my current school to a new one this fall. J, being the most amazing best friend, went to my new school with me to check it out. When we got there I realized that it wasn't for me because it not only was a quarter school with less time to finish material semester schools could spend four months on, I had pretty much "transferred" over just so I could start off as a freshman. I figured I wouldn't be able to get good grades since I'm used to the semester system and spending another four years in a higher ranked college just isn't worth it in the long run. So, I came back to my original school. Since the fall semester already began, I couldn't come back to the dorms and live with J (we're roommates). So I immediately set out to find an apartment, and I found one within a month. I didn't really like it, but it had to do because I don't want to risk having to let J get thrown out of the dorms because of hiding me there. Now I'm registered for the spring, housing put me back into the super double room J and I shared. So much for hiding..... D:
I hate the dining halls in my school, and I am not willing to spend $1300 on shitty food that gives me horrible diarrhea and stomach aches. So I rather give up the close proximity to campus and the AMAZING residence halls to live off campus. Besides, J is graduating this May, so I figured I might as well move out, because after sharing a suite with her, I never want to go back to sharing a suite with strangers. Plus, moving off campus is way cheaper.
The problem lies here: J and I already found an apartment. I had my eyes set on another apartment that wasn't going to be available until mid December. Wa-la~!! Mid December is upon us within two weeks. There's something about the apartment we have now that makes me uncomfortable. We have this hallway that gives me the creeps at night, and I hate having to go to bed or stay in the study. Even going to the bathroom at the end of the hall bothers me. I didn't realize that I felt this way until after we moved in and stayed there for a week. I'm normally not this indecisive, but god I hate myself for being like this right now. I honestly think that moving to the apartment I'm more comfortable with the right decision, because I could permanently stay there without having to move again by May. Might as well settle down once and for all.
Ever since this summer, J and I have never really settled down. We were perfectly happy living in our super double room when the school forced us to move to another hall and into this TINY double room. Life started going downhill from there. OMG I should show you guys pictures of when we first moved in. The entire room was filled with our stuff it was ridiculous. We had to share the living room with other people as well, and ughhhh, it sucked balls. During the beginning of fall, J moved back to our super double room alone (since I was leaving). Things would've been fine had I not decided to come back.
Now things are out of control. J had helped me clean up my stuff, mailed it to my new school and helped carry extra luggage's. And when I decided to come back, she helped me yet again mail my shit back to my original school and carry my luggage's. Then she went through all the trouble to move out with me..... and now we're looking at the possibility of moving yet AGAIN.
I feel so guilty for doing this to her. I really want to settle this so we can finally start living our lives and focusing on school.
Sheesh what a rant :(
Sounds seriously complicated eh?
Long story short: I had originally planned on transferring from my current school to a new one this fall. J, being the most amazing best friend, went to my new school with me to check it out. When we got there I realized that it wasn't for me because it not only was a quarter school with less time to finish material semester schools could spend four months on, I had pretty much "transferred" over just so I could start off as a freshman. I figured I wouldn't be able to get good grades since I'm used to the semester system and spending another four years in a higher ranked college just isn't worth it in the long run. So, I came back to my original school. Since the fall semester already began, I couldn't come back to the dorms and live with J (we're roommates). So I immediately set out to find an apartment, and I found one within a month. I didn't really like it, but it had to do because I don't want to risk having to let J get thrown out of the dorms because of hiding me there. Now I'm registered for the spring, housing put me back into the super double room J and I shared. So much for hiding..... D:
I hate the dining halls in my school, and I am not willing to spend $1300 on shitty food that gives me horrible diarrhea and stomach aches. So I rather give up the close proximity to campus and the AMAZING residence halls to live off campus. Besides, J is graduating this May, so I figured I might as well move out, because after sharing a suite with her, I never want to go back to sharing a suite with strangers. Plus, moving off campus is way cheaper.
The problem lies here: J and I already found an apartment. I had my eyes set on another apartment that wasn't going to be available until mid December. Wa-la~!! Mid December is upon us within two weeks. There's something about the apartment we have now that makes me uncomfortable. We have this hallway that gives me the creeps at night, and I hate having to go to bed or stay in the study. Even going to the bathroom at the end of the hall bothers me. I didn't realize that I felt this way until after we moved in and stayed there for a week. I'm normally not this indecisive, but god I hate myself for being like this right now. I honestly think that moving to the apartment I'm more comfortable with the right decision, because I could permanently stay there without having to move again by May. Might as well settle down once and for all.
Ever since this summer, J and I have never really settled down. We were perfectly happy living in our super double room when the school forced us to move to another hall and into this TINY double room. Life started going downhill from there. OMG I should show you guys pictures of when we first moved in. The entire room was filled with our stuff it was ridiculous. We had to share the living room with other people as well, and ughhhh, it sucked balls. During the beginning of fall, J moved back to our super double room alone (since I was leaving). Things would've been fine had I not decided to come back.
Now things are out of control. J had helped me clean up my stuff, mailed it to my new school and helped carry extra luggage's. And when I decided to come back, she helped me yet again mail my shit back to my original school and carry my luggage's. Then she went through all the trouble to move out with me..... and now we're looking at the possibility of moving yet AGAIN.
I feel so guilty for doing this to her. I really want to settle this so we can finally start living our lives and focusing on school.
Sheesh what a rant :(