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[de_paddestoel]

the wine won't go down
i'm all ashiver
thinking of closeted queer boys
who touched me in the dark
and awkward shy-eyed girls
whose eyes shy from any mention
even though we arched over each other

it's depressing, and desperate
feel a craving for humans
for touch and appreciation
even though i can't get my own self together

sigh
words won't work.

to-day, i had a date
and i think it went okay, but i think she is not interested (despite our hours of kissing, weeks ago).
running into kelly, too, whilst on date...
*sigh

tonight
i drank
and spoke to shelley
all upset
told her i missed her

:/