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i need to write about better things.
better things.
well recebntly the weather has sucked. majorly. my life has been spiralling up and down and all around. im finally out of scool. being 21 is setting in slowly. ive been listening to Murder by death. the rain accompanies it with my long drives. day and night no longer exists...
and then there this girl. im tiptoeing around her like we're on this block of ice and she stands in the center. i just want to walk straight up to her. and know that im not going to fall through... but there lies the inevitable unknowing.
fuck.

ive done a lot of different things today.
- went to the gym
- took my only final....failed
- had lunch with manda and moe and jimmy.
- hung out
- went to boston to take photos of a band
- drove back to here to talk to myslef
- went to applebees and met up with the guys.
- came home.

i need the sun to come out. tthis rain is depressing
tomorrow is mothers day.
i need to visit my mom. im actally looking toward it.
afte that. i dont know. im hoping i can be with someone.