May 12, 2008 15:46
I became wrestless recently, and the result is turning into something wonderful. the symbolism of this, you will read soon.
I have always wanted to help people. I used to think that the only means of doing so was becoming a psychologist. It took me years to realize that I was wrong. It's only recently that I have discovered that there are other professional outlets which allow me to practice my love/ hate relationship with conflict.
I use the term conflict broadly. It can be internal or external, large or small. I love conflict because it makes people grow. I love growing and seeing others grow. Meanwhile, I dislike conflict if it cannot be moved passed. Conflict is only useful if you get out of it. While you're in it, it's terrible, uncomfortable, stifling.
Only recently have I realized that I want to help people by helping them manage conflict. This can be conflicting emotions, conflicting priorities, conflicting personalities, etc. And there are so many ways in which I can help.
Managing conflict, somehow, makes sense to me. There is something reactionary about how I deal with it myself, and think about it when I see others experiencing it. It's as though I can just "feel" the solution. It's just intuitive and I haven't yet formulated the sentences to communicate it. Either way, I like that I can do this.
This skill lends itself to becoming a mediator, a coach, a consultant, and an abundant list of other professional paths, all of which I can embrace. Lately, I have been pursuing some of these career paths with more attention than ever, hoping that one of them will provide for me more profesional experience. Amazingly, many of these paths don't require formal training or education. If I was so inclined, I could call myself a mediator, consultant, and coach. However, the time is not right. I need to gain more experience and meet more people in these fields. I have to sew myself into these communities. And so I have begun.
Doors are opening. the more effort and attention I give to my career, the more opportunities are becoming available. Networking, going to seminars, talking to people - all this seemingly trivial connecting is opening doors. I have an interview with a company that provides success coaching for college students. I was asked by one of my Union Board members if I would like to speak about our peer-to-peer conflict resolution program. I was contacted by a local Mediator and asked if there was any interest in collaborating with him. Things are happening. I'm dipping my toe in the water, and watching the ripples. I want wait to dive in and feel the waves.