How quickly a month moves
I don't know if I ever made it "official" here, but I completed OCS and am a 2LT in the Army National Guard. It's been quite an interesting past 5 months to say the least.
Things seem a bit surreal and yet... oddly practical and routine. I have been enjoying my time off. Dissapointment over a summer internship long gone. I can't wait for football to come, to visit one last time with my friends, to go chasing those stars dangled in front of me. Before I know it, everything I have grown used to will be gone. I find myself apprehensive, joyful, melancholy, and at peace all within minutes of eachother. Sometimes all together.
I guess it is time.
No. I know it is time.
It's not like it is forever either. I shall be back by April. But I have a funny feeling this world may have drifted pretty far by then.
There is one more emotional giant for me to slay. But when you truely let go, there is nothing more to fear.
I didn't expect this log to be so cryptic.
Fear. What do you fear? Do I fear death? No, not really at all. I fear pain much more than death- which isn't a great substitute. I fear failure most of all...
But enough of this. Let us dine and make merry. For tonight is the greatest event of the year. The kick-off of college football!
P.S. I also found out an interesting tidbit of life. To have logic as the sole ruler of the mind, can often leave you with dissapointing results.
Things seem a bit surreal and yet... oddly practical and routine. I have been enjoying my time off. Dissapointment over a summer internship long gone. I can't wait for football to come, to visit one last time with my friends, to go chasing those stars dangled in front of me. Before I know it, everything I have grown used to will be gone. I find myself apprehensive, joyful, melancholy, and at peace all within minutes of eachother. Sometimes all together.
I guess it is time.
No. I know it is time.
It's not like it is forever either. I shall be back by April. But I have a funny feeling this world may have drifted pretty far by then.
There is one more emotional giant for me to slay. But when you truely let go, there is nothing more to fear.
I didn't expect this log to be so cryptic.
Fear. What do you fear? Do I fear death? No, not really at all. I fear pain much more than death- which isn't a great substitute. I fear failure most of all...
But enough of this. Let us dine and make merry. For tonight is the greatest event of the year. The kick-off of college football!
P.S. I also found out an interesting tidbit of life. To have logic as the sole ruler of the mind, can often leave you with dissapointing results.