Fear....kinda
well these last few weeks have been....odd...i guess:
I do my best, i think, to go out with people as much as possible: i mean everyone's leaving for college again, and i dont want to not see them, ya know? But lately, for some reason, i just don't have the motivation...or the strength to.
I'll be planning things with people for the morning, and ill wake up 2 hours late. not because i didnt hear the alarm or something, but because my body isn't motivated enough to: my mind doesn't find it important anymore.
Maybe im becoming a workaholic: hopefully not=). Maybe i dont have enough time for me, so my body makes me stay alseep/lounging until i gain some energy. i dont THINK its because im lazy: i hope not anyway.
And as far as it can matter, i apologize to everyone who had to wait a little while for me to motivate myself. I know i don't have a good reason to keep you guys waiting: sometimes i even make some up so I don't make them so mad. Its wrong, but im running out of options. Amanda, in particular: i wasn't there when ya needed me the other night. Im SO sorry about that...i really didn't catch your inference correctly, but i WILL make it up to you. You're too important to me to not make something like that up=).
Anyway, besides that...im still wondering why people hate me so: or why people just don't ask me certain questions...or why people just won't tell me what's on their minds. Maybe i present myself too inconsiderate? I dunno...ill work on that i suppose: can't hurt if at all=).
Love to all of you happy people! Ill miss you all in college!
Mark
I do my best, i think, to go out with people as much as possible: i mean everyone's leaving for college again, and i dont want to not see them, ya know? But lately, for some reason, i just don't have the motivation...or the strength to.
I'll be planning things with people for the morning, and ill wake up 2 hours late. not because i didnt hear the alarm or something, but because my body isn't motivated enough to: my mind doesn't find it important anymore.
Maybe im becoming a workaholic: hopefully not=). Maybe i dont have enough time for me, so my body makes me stay alseep/lounging until i gain some energy. i dont THINK its because im lazy: i hope not anyway.
And as far as it can matter, i apologize to everyone who had to wait a little while for me to motivate myself. I know i don't have a good reason to keep you guys waiting: sometimes i even make some up so I don't make them so mad. Its wrong, but im running out of options. Amanda, in particular: i wasn't there when ya needed me the other night. Im SO sorry about that...i really didn't catch your inference correctly, but i WILL make it up to you. You're too important to me to not make something like that up=).
Anyway, besides that...im still wondering why people hate me so: or why people just don't ask me certain questions...or why people just won't tell me what's on their minds. Maybe i present myself too inconsiderate? I dunno...ill work on that i suppose: can't hurt if at all=).
Love to all of you happy people! Ill miss you all in college!
Mark