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Rationalizing only gets you so far...Its a vicious cycle and when you think you are free from it all something kicks up in the thought process that just keeps it going for no reason whatsoever. I think part of it is just where I'm at in life right now compared to my younger friends. I know I shouldn't compare to them cause thats just what they do but I just can't help thinking I'm so far behind in life.
I mean I think I'm happy where I'm at (most of the time) but once again something kicks up where you just wish things were better and different. I know I need to make a change but I'm already working on things to get out of this hole I'm in. I'm just thankful for the few people who talk to me and are friendly despite how down I may be at times.
Will I stop doing the Emo-ish posts....Probably not but at least this outlet is definitely a good thing for both my sanity and my motivation.
This was a post that apparently got saved by LJ and I decided to kick it back up and look back over it...
I have no idea when I started writing this post but I basically just don't even know how I feel right now and have no clue why most of the people in my life are just complete assholes and trolls...Glad I've lived this long without snapping as I see that as a personal achievement. What shall I do and where will I go. I just wish more people like actually talked to me so I'd be able to try and hold conversations and actually feel wanted instead of trying to butt into situations and not have anyone want me there.
I mean I think I'm happy where I'm at (most of the time) but once again something kicks up where you just wish things were better and different. I know I need to make a change but I'm already working on things to get out of this hole I'm in. I'm just thankful for the few people who talk to me and are friendly despite how down I may be at times.
Will I stop doing the Emo-ish posts....Probably not but at least this outlet is definitely a good thing for both my sanity and my motivation.
This was a post that apparently got saved by LJ and I decided to kick it back up and look back over it...
I have no idea when I started writing this post but I basically just don't even know how I feel right now and have no clue why most of the people in my life are just complete assholes and trolls...Glad I've lived this long without snapping as I see that as a personal achievement. What shall I do and where will I go. I just wish more people like actually talked to me so I'd be able to try and hold conversations and actually feel wanted instead of trying to butt into situations and not have anyone want me there.