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Today Mel leaves to go and compete in her dance comp. I wish her the best of luck and although she doesnt think she will do well at least she will have fun. I wish I could have fun in something I compete in but sadly that is not a concept I understand. When I play tekken 5 it is no longer fun when I have something to prove and I am no longer
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Well... paragraph uno-- Talk to Melley on AIM...her mom hates it when she's on the phone when supposed to be doing hw, but can get away with AIM. Plus, Melley only has time to do the things she has to do, so instead of waiting for her to find x-tra time to hang with u, do some of the necessesities with her. Like think about how much longer you get to spend with her when you work on her cases with her..versus when you go over to hang out. Or incorporate a necesity with something nice...picnic...discussing homework or watever. It's not what you want, but it is time with her, and knowing her she will prefer to see you like that, than not at all. Then she will also feel less stressed when you are over, and not feel like she has to rush her time with you.
Paragraph dos-- Y call your dad if you don't want to...i understand being angry and u shouldn't feel bad for being angry. As for your mom, if you really wanted to talk with her you would find a way...use your cell phone or if she has comp. email her, if she's staying in one particular place write to her. And if you don't have drive to do any of these things, then don't pity yourself 4 not being able to talk to her...because you could!
Paragraph trieze-- You're just closing up, it's not like your taking the money home in your pocket...don't even think about protecting the money...just do whatever you have to to lock up, and makesure that EVERYTHING is protected. AS for your phony smiles...whats up with that...usually around me your in an openly crappy mood...but thats cuz i'm not an adult. You can still be friendly and be hurting...so just because your hurting doesn't mean that they are wrong in thinking u r friendly. And as for the rest...i don't even know Cameron...you're so morbid! lol (probly just gave away *secret* identity(which isn't really too secret)) K well...jus suk it up! no, jk. I honestly don't know what to tell u but, you've gotten through feeling terrible, even suicidle b4, try to look back and c how u managed to feel better and maybe it wont apply, but don't try to make yourself happy...just try to get rid of all reasons to be sad.
Now after reading my novel...which probly none of you did cept maybe Cameron...I'm really glad none of you know who i am lol...(please don't get out the tomatoes)
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I owe my dad a phone call no matter hw much I hate him, or at least an explination to why I dont answer his calls, it is NOT ok for me to just shut him off and pretend that he doesnt exist. I have somebody that does that to me so I know how that can feel. And no I have no way of talking to my mom unless she calls from a pay phone from there.
Closing is a big responsibilty and I hate it. I choose not to be responsible for the thousands of dollars required not because I am tepted to steal or anything like that, simply because a multitude of things can happen beyond my control(thus making me owe 50 bucks like I do no sense there was 50 bucks not accounted for). If i am in an openly crap mood around you then you are one of 4 people and should consider yourself "lucky" that I am currently comfortable being myself around you. There is a great pluthera of reasons of why I am sad and none of them are in MY control but others hands. Some are in the hands of fate and everything that dictates it.
Heh, basically no one reads my journal so your probably right.
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Umm well...again my minute of advice is gone so obviously i don't know what to say...just out of curiosities sake...who are those 4 people because I think I am one of them or just know one of them close enough to be able to see you like that. I dunno, i think Melley could use the help...from u(not from me she'd bite my head off) but she doesn't necessarily "need help" it's just a way to spend time w/ her... oh well I have nothing left to say.
I wish i could help and as for calling your Dad, don't put yourslef through the "I have to call him/I don't want to/ I've gotta explain/ what do i say" thing...You're better than that, just call him...(i know easier said than done) plus just to poke around more in your personal business *hopes no one else is reading this* I don't particularly think Melley would appreciate your open-iosity of her and you both...plus if u make her grumpy she'll probly take it out on people who she sees a lot like me! lol k well here talk to me on this sn if you want (or just here(considering you allready have my screenname and know who I am(this would be my secret identity sn))) DDRBPCbuddy
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:) k, cya
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