Good Times and Bad
A few months ago, I lost a very close friend of mine because of both of our stubbourness rolled into one big fight that separated us for what seemed like a very long time. Well, last Saturday, my mom asked my friend's mom (who works with my mom) if she would like to come work on the building that my parents recently purchased to set up a gospel singing theatre, which needs a whole lot of work on it. My mom also invited my friend and her dad to come eat lunch together after the work. I really didn't think she would come, but to my surprise, she opened the door to the computer room while I was typing away to my LiveJournal, causing me to nearly have a heart attack. I immediately jumped up and gave her one of the strongest bear hugs I have ever given, and we had a really great time that day. Unfortunately, it came to an end, but we still speak with each other on the internet on occasion. Thankfully, our relationship is slowly recovering.
Well, there was the good part, now for the bad. One of my other best friends (who is a girl) had recently broke up with her boyfriend. Now, what this girl didn't know was that I liked her very much. I liked her in a far different way than a best friend, but I hadn't led her on to think so until a few weeks ago while talking to her on the internet, which was replied with several hours of happy-go-lucky flirting. I must say, I went to sleep that night with stars in my eyes and a warm feeling in my heart that maybe we could be more than just friends. Well, a few days ago, my friend asked me to call her and gave me her number, which I used a few days later. We talked for nearly an hour on just things that popped into our heads, and we laughed; it was really great. Then, before we hung up, that's when I said it. "Hey, can I tell you a secret?" I asked, praying that what I was about to say wouldn't completely make her hang up on me. "Sure." She replied. "I like you more than a friend, if you know what I mean." We both laughed under our breaths, and thats when I heard what I really wanted to hear. "Sure, we can start talking." The next day, it was great. I was on cloud nine thinking that maybe this relationship could really go somewhere. Now, all of you probably don't know me that well, but I am the type of guy that doesn't look at a girl's body, but at her heart. That's why I don't have many relationships, but when I do, they last for a very long time. Well, once again I found myself calling her, and the conversation started out well. We talked about random things, like we normally did, but then she said something that really shocked me. "So, did I hear that you think that we're going out?" She asked with an all too innocent tone in her voice. "Yeah, to my understanding." I replied, uncertain on what she was trying to get across to me. "Well, I only meant as friends when I said what I did last night..." That sentance hit me like a ton of bricks. My heart sank, my smile wiped away. I was truly and utterly broken by her words, which pierced me harder and deeper than any knife ever could. Now, I'm sorry, but when you have known this girl as long as I have, and then you have this tiny glimmer of hope that you can actually have a strong relationship with her, you become a little bit of a 'fool in love' as some people say. Not only did she say that, but then she began telling me of the things that she and her boyfriend used to do together, and how romantic it was, and that was just downright rude. Not only did she lead me on and 'tease' me in the worst way possible, but she deliberately shunned me away like a stray dog. "I gotta go." I said unemotionally. "Why?" "Because I have stuff to do." And I said it dryly, too. So, I hung up, drowned myself in my own self-doubt for a few hours, then decided to chat with a few friends online. Two more of my very close friends spoke with me on the subject, and they made my day a whole lot brighter. Thank you both very much; I love you two like sisters, and you truly mean the world to me. So, in closing, if you ever have something thats eating away at your heart, there's alway a couple of very close friends that will always help you out. Guys, you can never have too many friends. Get as many as you can, and do absolutely everything to keep them close. It really is worth it in hard situations, and the feeling of having someone who you know is there for you is too great to express in words.
Well, there was the good part, now for the bad. One of my other best friends (who is a girl) had recently broke up with her boyfriend. Now, what this girl didn't know was that I liked her very much. I liked her in a far different way than a best friend, but I hadn't led her on to think so until a few weeks ago while talking to her on the internet, which was replied with several hours of happy-go-lucky flirting. I must say, I went to sleep that night with stars in my eyes and a warm feeling in my heart that maybe we could be more than just friends. Well, a few days ago, my friend asked me to call her and gave me her number, which I used a few days later. We talked for nearly an hour on just things that popped into our heads, and we laughed; it was really great. Then, before we hung up, that's when I said it. "Hey, can I tell you a secret?" I asked, praying that what I was about to say wouldn't completely make her hang up on me. "Sure." She replied. "I like you more than a friend, if you know what I mean." We both laughed under our breaths, and thats when I heard what I really wanted to hear. "Sure, we can start talking." The next day, it was great. I was on cloud nine thinking that maybe this relationship could really go somewhere. Now, all of you probably don't know me that well, but I am the type of guy that doesn't look at a girl's body, but at her heart. That's why I don't have many relationships, but when I do, they last for a very long time. Well, once again I found myself calling her, and the conversation started out well. We talked about random things, like we normally did, but then she said something that really shocked me. "So, did I hear that you think that we're going out?" She asked with an all too innocent tone in her voice. "Yeah, to my understanding." I replied, uncertain on what she was trying to get across to me. "Well, I only meant as friends when I said what I did last night..." That sentance hit me like a ton of bricks. My heart sank, my smile wiped away. I was truly and utterly broken by her words, which pierced me harder and deeper than any knife ever could. Now, I'm sorry, but when you have known this girl as long as I have, and then you have this tiny glimmer of hope that you can actually have a strong relationship with her, you become a little bit of a 'fool in love' as some people say. Not only did she say that, but then she began telling me of the things that she and her boyfriend used to do together, and how romantic it was, and that was just downright rude. Not only did she lead me on and 'tease' me in the worst way possible, but she deliberately shunned me away like a stray dog. "I gotta go." I said unemotionally. "Why?" "Because I have stuff to do." And I said it dryly, too. So, I hung up, drowned myself in my own self-doubt for a few hours, then decided to chat with a few friends online. Two more of my very close friends spoke with me on the subject, and they made my day a whole lot brighter. Thank you both very much; I love you two like sisters, and you truly mean the world to me. So, in closing, if you ever have something thats eating away at your heart, there's alway a couple of very close friends that will always help you out. Guys, you can never have too many friends. Get as many as you can, and do absolutely everything to keep them close. It really is worth it in hard situations, and the feeling of having someone who you know is there for you is too great to express in words.