Darwinian Rogue
I am now broadbanded and laptopped. Every time I sit down to use the internet, though, I am suddenly at a loss as to what I ought to do. I am just geared toward school right now, all of the sites that have occupied my attention for so long seem like a waste of my valuable attention. I realize that to succeed I am going to have to be focused like a laser. It is like I explained to Amanda, our outcome and frustration level is going to depend a lot about how efficiently we use the time we have. We have to know that the time to de-stress and relax has to be the time we spend with our children and each other.
Before we unhooked our Dish Network box and thus our DVR, I watched one last samurai movie. This one was called HARAKIRI. I thought it was an excellent film, nearly as good as a Kurosawa classic. The plot revolves around the idea of samurai who are out of work because their former employer has been abolished. This is a time of peace, so job opportunities for ronin are rare. Some take to showing up to the gates of a House asking to perform harakiri rather than live on eking out an existence on the streets. The story goes that the first time this happened the House was so impressed with the resolve of the samurai that they offered him membership. After that most of the time the House would just give the petitioner some money and send him on his way. The House of Iyi, featured in the movie, decided to force petitioners to go through with the act to teach them a lesson. It is a very well paced and told story of what effect this has on a couple of individual samurai. This reminded me of my own situation. I have talked about how dependent I am on my employer for my livelihood. Recent events have reflected how tentative positions can be. Several people who have been with the company for a long time have found themselves held to account for their transgressions. I am not too worried or anything, because I generally don't do anything that would get me in trouble. It seems unprofessional to not behave the way it is expected of me and try my best to conduct myself in a manner that makes it obvious what a good employee I am. It sounds nerdy even to me, but I honestly do take the comparison of myself to a samurai, especially the code of honor, relatively seriously. It helps give me the resolve to succeed at whatever I undertake. I have a natural laziness that it takes this level of obsession to overcome. This is my way of artificially imposing structure to my life. In general it has worked incredibly well. I have an amount of confidence that seems unfounded. I realize that the path will be difficult, and unless I maintain a zen level of quiet resolve that I will fail. As George C. Scott says in the movie PATTON, the very idea of losing is hurtful to Americans. Especially a New Age American Samurai.
Meditate & Litigate,
Word!
Before we unhooked our Dish Network box and thus our DVR, I watched one last samurai movie. This one was called HARAKIRI. I thought it was an excellent film, nearly as good as a Kurosawa classic. The plot revolves around the idea of samurai who are out of work because their former employer has been abolished. This is a time of peace, so job opportunities for ronin are rare. Some take to showing up to the gates of a House asking to perform harakiri rather than live on eking out an existence on the streets. The story goes that the first time this happened the House was so impressed with the resolve of the samurai that they offered him membership. After that most of the time the House would just give the petitioner some money and send him on his way. The House of Iyi, featured in the movie, decided to force petitioners to go through with the act to teach them a lesson. It is a very well paced and told story of what effect this has on a couple of individual samurai. This reminded me of my own situation. I have talked about how dependent I am on my employer for my livelihood. Recent events have reflected how tentative positions can be. Several people who have been with the company for a long time have found themselves held to account for their transgressions. I am not too worried or anything, because I generally don't do anything that would get me in trouble. It seems unprofessional to not behave the way it is expected of me and try my best to conduct myself in a manner that makes it obvious what a good employee I am. It sounds nerdy even to me, but I honestly do take the comparison of myself to a samurai, especially the code of honor, relatively seriously. It helps give me the resolve to succeed at whatever I undertake. I have a natural laziness that it takes this level of obsession to overcome. This is my way of artificially imposing structure to my life. In general it has worked incredibly well. I have an amount of confidence that seems unfounded. I realize that the path will be difficult, and unless I maintain a zen level of quiet resolve that I will fail. As George C. Scott says in the movie PATTON, the very idea of losing is hurtful to Americans. Especially a New Age American Samurai.
Meditate & Litigate,
Word!