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i've officially stopped drinking. i had slowed down to the point where i haven't drank except for at dinner once and a while, and a shot randomly. but, i'm making it official. I feel like shit when i drink, my medicine interacts and makes me feel worse... and I really don't need to feel worse these days. I don't miss it. I really don't. I'm going through this phase where i can not ignore my depression and what is going on in my head, so I feel like drinking is just giving me an excuse to forget for the night, feel like shit, and wake up and feel like shit. Plus, the past times where I have been drunk I've been violent.
reading online about my medicine, that i've been on for months, and if i was to do a narcotic such as extacy, there's a very good chance i'd die... good to just learn this now.
my depression has gotten to the point where I physically can not get out of bed, which it has been at for the past couple of weeks. my anxiety kicks in sometimes about school, but I feel like the effexor is better at tackling my anxiety rather than depression. I haven't had a panic attack in months but I can't get out of bed now. Or cry. All I want to do is cry and I physcially can not make myself do it. I asked blue to make me cry this morning and he just didn't know how.
I just want to go to blue's and bake cookies and cry. and sleep. and escape.
reading online about my medicine, that i've been on for months, and if i was to do a narcotic such as extacy, there's a very good chance i'd die... good to just learn this now.
my depression has gotten to the point where I physically can not get out of bed, which it has been at for the past couple of weeks. my anxiety kicks in sometimes about school, but I feel like the effexor is better at tackling my anxiety rather than depression. I haven't had a panic attack in months but I can't get out of bed now. Or cry. All I want to do is cry and I physcially can not make myself do it. I asked blue to make me cry this morning and he just didn't know how.
I just want to go to blue's and bake cookies and cry. and sleep. and escape.