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George Kirk
Met with patient in neutral location - he doesn't want to pollute my office in case he wants to come see me in non-professional setting. Subjects ranged from nightmares to his death to his continued family issues. He's being placed in a position of having to choose between pleasing his wife/lover and his child - no way around it for the time being.
Patient has experienced nightmares continually since a traumatic event when he was twelve years old. Sedatives ineffective due to unique biochemistry (see Kirk, JT - allergies); patient states he deals with them by "keeping busy and sleeping next to someone" or existing on cat naps.
Patient several times blamed his own death as the start of his family's problems, as if he were to blame for dying. I'm not sure how to get that out of his head, when it's the easiest way for him to deal with the situation. He seems to understand that his son's abandonment issues stem from his mother's decision to leave them with abusive stepfather, but... he's dealt with the wife. Now it is time for him to deal with the son(s), and that's going to be...
The way he separated himself when he talked to me. Kept me 'the friend' apart from me 'the doctor'. He's doing that with his family. The Winona who abandoned his children is someone else from Winona the woman he's found again. I don't believe he's seeing her as the same person. If it wouldn't be so traumatic to everyone involved, it would be helpful for him to see Jim and Winona together; perhaps that would trigger something in him. I'm not sure how else to break into that head and get those nightmares to stop. They're related, I'm sure of it. The way he distances himself, it's like his mind reciprocates, is trying to protect itself.
Winona Kirk
Have concluded my fourth session with Winona Kirk. Feel as if progress has been made, despite patient's worry that not much has happened.
Patient has discussed changes in her life and her partners' lives in the past twenty-five years. She became emotional when discussing plans she and her partners had made, plans disrupted by George's death and her reaction to it. She seemed to regret her decisions in light of news that one of her partners might be a father who did not know his own child.
On a good note - patient seems genuinely interested in making amends - not simply for the others but for herself, to heal herself. That was promising to hear. However, we discussed the possibility that there might not be a clean resolution of her estrangement with her son. Her plans seem unclear - to remain here as long as possible and hope for the best.
I've offered to meet with her, George, and the Admiral, or any combination thereof... I've heard from both George and Winnie, and I while I'm sure they're being honest with each other - I wonder if the right questions are being asked.
DeForest Kelley
Summoned to patient's room by his suitemates. Patient appeared disheveled and disoriented, having fallen into a deep depression upon leaving sickbay a few day ago. Friends noted they had not seen him, did not believe he had eaten in over two days. Orders written for hydration and liquid nutrients to be administered, as well as a sedative to induce restful sleep.
Patient experiencing deep depression due to returning to life without his wife, as well as the other changes in his life (i.e deaging, transport to Enterprise). Counseling recommended. Due to patient's reaction to me, recommended that George Kirk talk to him, as he has a unique perspective in returning from the dead to pick up your life again.
Note to see patient again tomorrow.
Spock
Unsure how to label this... it didn't feel so much as a counseling session as two friends talking; however, I'll note it here, for my personal records.
There were questions inside him regarding his duties as First Officer to his Captain, now bondmate, and perhaps more. I still don't understand the nuances of it all, but perhaps having a link inside the mind of your lover works well in bed but not so well when you're angry at each other. He sensed disappointment and didn't know how to react. Hell, who can't sympathize with that? Some of us have had years of practice with that...
I shouldn't be flippant. It just seems hard to imagine that someone as logical as Spock would have a problem with something that every five year old human's got figured out - if your actions make someone angry, then next time, don't do it.
Unique issue include an inability to label feelings and emotions as clearly as he'd like. Perceives failure with shame, deep shame, and the need to separate himself from others. I suppose some people do that - I've done that, left sullenly when I wanted to get away from the fight, the yelling.
I hope it works out for them, that they've talked by now and worked things out. Another aspect of the bond - might be too easy to simply fall into bed and not talk out the problems.
Need to make a note to myself to check on them in a couple of days.
George Kirk
Met with patient in neutral location - he doesn't want to pollute my office in case he wants to come see me in non-professional setting. Subjects ranged from nightmares to his death to his continued family issues. He's being placed in a position of having to choose between pleasing his wife/lover and his child - no way around it for the time being.
Patient has experienced nightmares continually since a traumatic event when he was twelve years old. Sedatives ineffective due to unique biochemistry (see Kirk, JT - allergies); patient states he deals with them by "keeping busy and sleeping next to someone" or existing on cat naps.
Patient several times blamed his own death as the start of his family's problems, as if he were to blame for dying. I'm not sure how to get that out of his head, when it's the easiest way for him to deal with the situation. He seems to understand that his son's abandonment issues stem from his mother's decision to leave them with abusive stepfather, but... he's dealt with the wife. Now it is time for him to deal with the son(s), and that's going to be...
The way he separated himself when he talked to me. Kept me 'the friend' apart from me 'the doctor'. He's doing that with his family. The Winona who abandoned his children is someone else from Winona the woman he's found again. I don't believe he's seeing her as the same person. If it wouldn't be so traumatic to everyone involved, it would be helpful for him to see Jim and Winona together; perhaps that would trigger something in him. I'm not sure how else to break into that head and get those nightmares to stop. They're related, I'm sure of it. The way he distances himself, it's like his mind reciprocates, is trying to protect itself.
Winona Kirk
Have concluded my fourth session with Winona Kirk. Feel as if progress has been made, despite patient's worry that not much has happened.
Patient has discussed changes in her life and her partners' lives in the past twenty-five years. She became emotional when discussing plans she and her partners had made, plans disrupted by George's death and her reaction to it. She seemed to regret her decisions in light of news that one of her partners might be a father who did not know his own child.
On a good note - patient seems genuinely interested in making amends - not simply for the others but for herself, to heal herself. That was promising to hear. However, we discussed the possibility that there might not be a clean resolution of her estrangement with her son. Her plans seem unclear - to remain here as long as possible and hope for the best.
I've offered to meet with her, George, and the Admiral, or any combination thereof... I've heard from both George and Winnie, and I while I'm sure they're being honest with each other - I wonder if the right questions are being asked.
DeForest Kelley
Summoned to patient's room by his suitemates. Patient appeared disheveled and disoriented, having fallen into a deep depression upon leaving sickbay a few day ago. Friends noted they had not seen him, did not believe he had eaten in over two days. Orders written for hydration and liquid nutrients to be administered, as well as a sedative to induce restful sleep.
Patient experiencing deep depression due to returning to life without his wife, as well as the other changes in his life (i.e deaging, transport to Enterprise). Counseling recommended. Due to patient's reaction to me, recommended that George Kirk talk to him, as he has a unique perspective in returning from the dead to pick up your life again.
Note to see patient again tomorrow.
Spock
Unsure how to label this... it didn't feel so much as a counseling session as two friends talking; however, I'll note it here, for my personal records.
There were questions inside him regarding his duties as First Officer to his Captain, now bondmate, and perhaps more. I still don't understand the nuances of it all, but perhaps having a link inside the mind of your lover works well in bed but not so well when you're angry at each other. He sensed disappointment and didn't know how to react. Hell, who can't sympathize with that? Some of us have had years of practice with that...
I shouldn't be flippant. It just seems hard to imagine that someone as logical as Spock would have a problem with something that every five year old human's got figured out - if your actions make someone angry, then next time, don't do it.
Unique issue include an inability to label feelings and emotions as clearly as he'd like. Perceives failure with shame, deep shame, and the need to separate himself from others. I suppose some people do that - I've done that, left sullenly when I wanted to get away from the fight, the yelling.
I hope it works out for them, that they've talked by now and worked things out. Another aspect of the bond - might be too easy to simply fall into bed and not talk out the problems.
Need to make a note to myself to check on them in a couple of days.