Pulling All-Nighters Gives Me Time To Think...
So, I started writing this last night, and it was just supposed to be something that I was writing about my life right now; something that I may be able to use eventually to write a story. It turned into something different...
Friendship is a very complicated, delicate thing. You have to walk a very thin line in any friendship. And while a friendship that's lasted a long while allows you to trip every once in a while, it also creates an even thinner line that you've got to walk?
How so, you ask? Well, take this, for example: What do you do when you feel like your best friend is treating you like you don't exist? You can't very well treat them the same way...can you? What is the point of no return in a friendship? It's a tough thing to figure out...how do you show a person a little "tough love" without hurting them? Honestly, you can't. It's difficult though. Your friend doesn't call you...ever. But if you don't call...suddenly you've hurt the relationship. And that sucks. Royally. But it's necessary as well. And, in the end, it should allow the friendship to grow stronger.
You just need to make sure you know when it's time to "kiss and make up," for lack of a better term. Like I said, it's a very thin line you walk in a friendship...and yes, I feel horrible that Kayla and I can't even speak to each other right now. I just want to feel like part of a relationship where we can both enjoy ourselves...and, quite honestly, I haven't enjoyed our friendship since summer ended. She all but refuses to make time for me, and I haven't exactly been trying very hard to make time either. Maybe Spring Break will change that, maybe it won't. Maybe the "healing process" won't begin until I return home this summer and then go to school at Wayne State instead of Western next year. I don't really know. I'm just missing a friend. I won't lie, being here at Western with some amazing people, having Beth here last weekend...it's a WONDERFUL time. I've met some amazing people here, and I was able to rekindle a friendship with Beth that went somewhat dormant until about a month or so ago (But, then, that should be expected when you only get to see each other once in six months, right?). But I'm still missing a friend. And it doesn't matter who it is...one friend cannot replace another. My life is simply not complete if ALL of my friends aren't living it with me. That's all there is to it.
Kayla...let me have the girl back that I loved so dearly for so long. You said it in one of our arguments and you've said it other times before...we're "destined to be together." Right now, it's tough to believe something that I'd like to believe. Help me out here...give me some sort of reason to fall desperately in love again.
Friendship is a very complicated, delicate thing. You have to walk a very thin line in any friendship. And while a friendship that's lasted a long while allows you to trip every once in a while, it also creates an even thinner line that you've got to walk?
How so, you ask? Well, take this, for example: What do you do when you feel like your best friend is treating you like you don't exist? You can't very well treat them the same way...can you? What is the point of no return in a friendship? It's a tough thing to figure out...how do you show a person a little "tough love" without hurting them? Honestly, you can't. It's difficult though. Your friend doesn't call you...ever. But if you don't call...suddenly you've hurt the relationship. And that sucks. Royally. But it's necessary as well. And, in the end, it should allow the friendship to grow stronger.
You just need to make sure you know when it's time to "kiss and make up," for lack of a better term. Like I said, it's a very thin line you walk in a friendship...and yes, I feel horrible that Kayla and I can't even speak to each other right now. I just want to feel like part of a relationship where we can both enjoy ourselves...and, quite honestly, I haven't enjoyed our friendship since summer ended. She all but refuses to make time for me, and I haven't exactly been trying very hard to make time either. Maybe Spring Break will change that, maybe it won't. Maybe the "healing process" won't begin until I return home this summer and then go to school at Wayne State instead of Western next year. I don't really know. I'm just missing a friend. I won't lie, being here at Western with some amazing people, having Beth here last weekend...it's a WONDERFUL time. I've met some amazing people here, and I was able to rekindle a friendship with Beth that went somewhat dormant until about a month or so ago (But, then, that should be expected when you only get to see each other once in six months, right?). But I'm still missing a friend. And it doesn't matter who it is...one friend cannot replace another. My life is simply not complete if ALL of my friends aren't living it with me. That's all there is to it.
Kayla...let me have the girl back that I loved so dearly for so long. You said it in one of our arguments and you've said it other times before...we're "destined to be together." Right now, it's tough to believe something that I'd like to believe. Help me out here...give me some sort of reason to fall desperately in love again.