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I hate this year so much. I mean, I have had some good times, but everything seems to be going wrong. The past few weeks have been really hard for me in every aspect of my life. Just when I thought that things were going well, everything fell apart with news of my dad's surgery. I try not to think about it, but after listening to the doctors, you can't help but freak out. And then came this alienation. I don't know, it seems to have come all of the sudden, but maybe there was some slight progression into it. Suddenly those that I was once closest with keep things from me that seem like a pretty big deal in their lives. And it is not just one person. Then when I find out that they didn't tell me or anything it feels really bad. I mean, am I really that untrustworthy of a person? I don't know. I am so sad, and I am sick of it, but everytime I pick myself up, life kicks me back down. I seriously want to go into bed and never come out again.