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The other night I stayed up ALL NIGHT talking my cousin and friend. I hadn't seen my cousin in a LONG time and he was going back to New Mexico the following day. Before we realized how long we'd been talking the sun comes up. We're suppose to be up in a couple hours anyway, so we decide to not even bother going to bed. I lied to my dad when he asked if we had stayed up all night, I can't remember the last time i lied. I felt like shit for lying, I ended up apologizing and telling the truth.
So we've cancelled all of our vacation plans for Europe. My grandma has cancer and if the doctors are right, she only has about 3 months. I feel so horrible because at lunch the other day she said, "I'm just so happy I have one good year left." I didn't say anything, my parent's didn't either. We don't really know where she got a year from, but niether of us wanted to break her spirit. We're hoping we can take her to Miami at least once, hopefully in a couple weeks. I just know that the last weeks are going to be the hardest. ughh this summer has been soooo depressing. I know i must be depressed...I never sleep this much or feel this fucking sad. But if I'm this bad now, i can't imagine how I'll be once she's gone...
I was suppose to go to a party tonight and then Indie pop dancing at Blackcat...and I didn't go to either one!? I really don't know what's wrong with me lately.
well tomarrow is Blondie at 930. I've been waiting my whole life to see Blondie play in person. I'm hopeful, things can get better...for a while, anyway.
So we've cancelled all of our vacation plans for Europe. My grandma has cancer and if the doctors are right, she only has about 3 months. I feel so horrible because at lunch the other day she said, "I'm just so happy I have one good year left." I didn't say anything, my parent's didn't either. We don't really know where she got a year from, but niether of us wanted to break her spirit. We're hoping we can take her to Miami at least once, hopefully in a couple weeks. I just know that the last weeks are going to be the hardest. ughh this summer has been soooo depressing. I know i must be depressed...I never sleep this much or feel this fucking sad. But if I'm this bad now, i can't imagine how I'll be once she's gone...
I was suppose to go to a party tonight and then Indie pop dancing at Blackcat...and I didn't go to either one!? I really don't know what's wrong with me lately.
well tomarrow is Blondie at 930. I've been waiting my whole life to see Blondie play in person. I'm hopeful, things can get better...for a while, anyway.