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What a day. So, today I spent most of my day at Peacock in the Park. Basically one big drag show, lots of women and drinking. I was hoping to not really have to see her today, but in someways it was ok for me. I miss her so much, and someone told me today, that if you love someone, then its worth fighting for. I can see she doesn;t want me to fight or put up a struggle, so I am not gonna stand around and hope that she will fall in my arms again. Again, it was weird seeing her, cause normally we are so cuddly and close with one another, and this time...it was merely friends. Its hard to look at someone you love and know you can;t have em. I miss her and I am sorry if thats wrong, but not a second goes by when I don't think of her, and where she doesn't come across somewhere in my heart and mind. I thought I had loved before, but now I am really not so sure. I think Krystal captured my heart in more ways then one. No words can describe how I feel for her, and I feel like this feeling I have won't just hide itself for one more day. I know we can still talk to one another, but the clock is ticking and I am beginning to think that its not making it any easier. I just wish for a moment she would hold me again. :( Sad when I have to feel this way, most cases I am hella strong, and in other cases I can be weak...this case...I am broke and lost for words of feeling and what I want. I just want her, and I know if you love someone you fight for it, but again...I'm a lover and not a fighter and she doesn't want what I want.