if you dont remind me, i wont forget you

[dckysgrl]

i am such a fuckup
my stomach felt sick all day
not because of the hangover
but because of the guilt
everything i have done in the past 3 weeks is totally uncharacteristic of me
how the hell did hanging out, an annual tradition
turn into strip poker and me being an asshole?

all this a few hours after i get off the phone with erik and he tells me he is driving all the way back from mass saturday night so he can see me when i get out of work at 2am

i really hope at some point i get better at life
cause i seem to be pretty bad with it recently