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I freaking hate Januarys. As a minister, it is the month of funerals. I can't tell you how many people hang on through the holidays and die the first of the year. I just want reach through screen and hug each of you, the sadness is just palpable.
My grandma is in the middle of her last days. Every time I see my mom's name show up on my caller id, I expect to hear the news. She is in horrible pain, despite constant morphine doses. I have reach the point that I want her to go, her life is nothing but misery here. I keep vacillating back and forth between going down now. But, she has only rare moments of lucidity that I wonder if it would do any good. She said goodbye to me at CHristmas, so I don't know.
Suffering sucks.
My grandma is in the middle of her last days. Every time I see my mom's name show up on my caller id, I expect to hear the news. She is in horrible pain, despite constant morphine doses. I have reach the point that I want her to go, her life is nothing but misery here. I keep vacillating back and forth between going down now. But, she has only rare moments of lucidity that I wonder if it would do any good. She said goodbye to me at CHristmas, so I don't know.
Suffering sucks.