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Right now I'm sitting on the floor of my empty lounge room in my empty house with my vodka and tears. I know tonight should be a happy night, to have a last drunk and sexys night in our beautiful house, the night before we move to our new house where i will live when i start my new job and everything is new and shiny but im just so sad. The past two weeks have been busy and emotionally as well as physically draining and im tired and empty and just wanting to curl up with something familiar and do nothing for a while - take time to catch up and think about stuff i havent had time to digest and to just be able to do nothing and not feel guilty about it. But i can't. Not yet. And when i can, everything will be different. I will have all these new things to get used to and make my own, which is an incredibly exciting thing to be happening - new year=new house, new job, new person! But i still feel sad about losing the old. It is one of those things that you dont realise is happening and then all of a sudden its like woah! What the hell is going on!? Why are you doing that? Where?! But it is a good thing...