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Guh...
I don't know what to feel anymore...
I'm so fucking tired of my emotions taking hold of me like this....
I hate that I'm so....clueless....clueless about everything...I just wish I was certain of something...anything....
I think I have officially lost any and all faith in humanity...
I'm just so tired of feeling...All the happiness I feel is crushed under the overwhelming weight of pain, anguish, suffering....I just wish I couldn't feel anything sometimes...I wouldn't feel pleasure, true, but I also wouldn't feel any pain...And that would almost be worth giving up all happiness, just so I wouldn't have to feel...like this....
Is this what it feels like to have your heart broken...?..Or is this something entirely different...?...I just wish I knew....
Why can't I have the answers? Even just a few...? Why am I instead destined to wonder?
I just wish I could hold back all my emotions and just...not feel...just for once....
I hate this....
Your Depressed, hopeless, fucked-up Stuck-Up Bitch/Special Porn Star,
~LynLyn>X(
I don't know what to feel anymore...
I'm so fucking tired of my emotions taking hold of me like this....
I hate that I'm so....clueless....clueless about everything...I just wish I was certain of something...anything....
I think I have officially lost any and all faith in humanity...
I'm just so tired of feeling...All the happiness I feel is crushed under the overwhelming weight of pain, anguish, suffering....I just wish I couldn't feel anything sometimes...I wouldn't feel pleasure, true, but I also wouldn't feel any pain...And that would almost be worth giving up all happiness, just so I wouldn't have to feel...like this....
Is this what it feels like to have your heart broken...?..Or is this something entirely different...?...I just wish I knew....
Why can't I have the answers? Even just a few...? Why am I instead destined to wonder?
I just wish I could hold back all my emotions and just...not feel...just for once....
I hate this....
Your Depressed, hopeless, fucked-up Stuck-Up Bitch/Special Porn Star,
~LynLyn>X(