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hey everyone..........its 2:30 in the morning and I'm bored outta my mind.......I have got a lot of shit on my mind.....but I have been trying to go on...and so far I have been doing good..........well sunday Grace was supposed to sleep over my house but she decided to make other plans to sleep over jorge's house instead.........and last week I told her she had one more chance of ever being with me again.....and if she did anything with him the I never wanted to talk to her again......well guess what......she fucked him......again.......I have talked to her.....and she skipped school and came over my house today, an we are supposed to go to the mall tomorrow but I don't know if I want to be with her ever again......I love her more than anything....but i can't take it.....I have been strong tho and have told myself the same things that my friends have been trying to get into my head.......if she loves me as much as she says she does then why did she fuck him.....why is she putting him b4 me??........I wish I could answer all these questions......but i can't......she was crying last night on the phone saying she was sorry for what she did and that she doesn't want to lose me.....she says that she loves me more than anything in the world but she is falling head over heels for him.......hmmm......which just confuses the fuck outta me more......oh well shit happens I guess......what to do about all that shit is what gets me.......should I stick by my word and just stop talking to her or should I still try and save what we have left? oh well only time will be able to answer those questions for me.....moving on to other things....today was the first day that I didn't have to go to school and it kinda feels weird.......hopfully I can get used to it tho........my mother brought one of my dogs to get put to sleep today.....it feels really lonely without her here under my feet at the computer...... :( ...I have been looking for my own apartment....and I might have found one....which is kinda kool......well I can't think of anything else to talk about so I'm gunna go to bed ..........goodnight everyone