pain
My back is killing me. Stupidly, I let my pain meds run down, so now I'm waiting for them in the mail and relying on aspirin and lidodeerm patches. I'd tried to order the meds earlier, but was told it was too soon, then realized not that too soon. So they are ordered and I hope I don't run completely out.
It's hard being in my body. What doesn't hurt, hurt, numb hurts. It's a numb that dampens the good and intensifies the bad. Oh. God, I am tired. In spite of it all, I don't feel old, but in 3 years I'll be 60. That looks old. I need a dentist and my teeth feel old.
I also worry about wearing loracs out. It scares me to be so damn dependent on somebody and feel like I'm wearing them down. I kind of hate my life if I think too much. I wish I could turn my mind off, especially at night. Instead I listen to KFOG and hope to sleep.
It's hard being in my body. What doesn't hurt, hurt, numb hurts. It's a numb that dampens the good and intensifies the bad. Oh. God, I am tired. In spite of it all, I don't feel old, but in 3 years I'll be 60. That looks old. I need a dentist and my teeth feel old.
I also worry about wearing loracs out. It scares me to be so damn dependent on somebody and feel like I'm wearing them down. I kind of hate my life if I think too much. I wish I could turn my mind off, especially at night. Instead I listen to KFOG and hope to sleep.