"...it's over already?"
so yeah, tonight's graduation...i'm not too sure how i really feel about it, but i do know that i'm probably going to cry...it's going to suck. up until yesterday at the senior picnic, i hadn't fully realized what was about to happen. i think i noticed it the most when they were playing our class song. i also realized yesterday, when i sat down to write the rest of my senior pictures, that it was so much easier to write them out, now that it was hitting me that this is more or less the last impression i'll have on a lot of these people. before, it took me like a half an hour to write one, whereas last night, it took me about an hour and a half to write out almost 30. i dunno what happened really, but i just all of a sudden knew what i wanted to say to everyone. i'm pretty sad that i'm leaving high school. before, i couldn't wait to get out, i hated the work, having to get up early, etc. but now that it's time for me to leave, i really don't want to. before, i never realized that i'd be leaving so many friends behind. i also hadn't realized how much they mean to me, and (something i have never before thought about) how much i mean to them. i want all of my friends and even acquaintences to know, that you mean so much to me. i'm going to miss you all so much, and i'll never forget you. i want everybody to do the best they can to keep in touch, i know i will...