[ shot ] Hidden in Plain Sight
done for:
dbsk_flashfic [ flashfic challenge 2: YAMAHA CF ]
title: Hidden in Plain Sight
pairing: one sided!JaeHo, Yunho POV, Jaejoong / Changmin
rating: PG
length: 460 words
A/N: set around a dbsk!verse where the yamaha CF was real. unbeta'd! warning!!!!! unbeta'd coz i'm on crack. > <
The spotlight shines for me on stage. All eyes are on me when I dance. I get attention --- really, it isn't as hard as it looks. Some people would say that it's effortless for me. All I do is smile --- act like the leader that I am --- and I am loved.
But it's not as easy with Jaejoong.
His eyes are never really on me. And even when they are, they reflect someone else's face --- someone else's smile. I lean on him and he leans in, too. But at the back of his mind I know he always thinks, I hope this is still okay with him --- and he holds my hand like he would his (though not as tightly).
I smile at him, we exchange glances and there are sparks. People see them --- I see them too, but Jaejoong never does. He does this for the fans, he always says. I used to hear it all the time during those days when it wasn't this easy to understand --- especially for someone so young. He had to explain it over and over again, It's just fan-service, Min, and he had to kiss him and hug him and love him more to make up for it.
Jaejoong never does that anymore. He doesn't have to because Changmin already understands.
He knows that Jaejoong is his and his alone. He knows that when Jaejoong smiles, he smiles at everyone but glows only for him. He knows that it's only an act, Jaejoong and I, and that he has the real thing --- he has the real Jaejoong.
Changmin knows that all I have is Hero. And I only have him when I am U-know, and we are JaeHo.
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Images of Jaejoong in danger plague me as I ride my way through the city, breathless and uncertain. His scream reverberates in my head, and I worry.
He isn't mine to save, I know that. And I know he's with Changmin. I shouldn't have this hope that maybe he's really calling for me, but I do --- so I keep going. I ask around, hands shaking, breaths sharp and eyes pleading.
Until we find them.
I pull up in front of a small restaurant, Yoochun and Junsu in tow, and we see Jaejoong and Changmin having the time of their lives as they always do --- together.
(Some people pity Changmin for being on the sidelines. They think there's only JaeHo and YooSu, then him. They don't know that I'm the pitiful one. They don't know that at the end of the day, I'm the one who ceases to exist. Because when we get home, there isn't a single light that shines for me. And I disappear.)
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