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Our relationship was never simple to begin with. At first i thought things happened too fast. I remember you texting me because you had to tell me something important, I was at my mom's best friend's house because my mom was visiting me for the first time from California. I thought you were crazy because we barely knew each other.
I look back now and i dont remember ever not knowing you. i remember meeting you... then i remember being friends on livejournal... then i remember talking to you for hours on the phone and feeling like i had known you my whole life.
Maybe i kept you around for the wrong reasons; maybe it was because i couldnt imagine not having you as my best friend and i felt like you would leave me if i took away all hope of anything more. Maybe i was confused and scared because i didnt know how i felt for you. Maybe i tried to reject feelings i had for you because i have always been terrified of them going all wrong and things being ruined between us. Maybe i have always known where my heart really was but i hoped that i could take it back so i could give us a chance.
I've never wanted to say goodbye and i always thought and hoped we'd stay friends through every and any thing. But now i see how unfair that is of me.
Thank you for being the best best friend anyone could ask for. Thank you for always being there for me and putting up with everything i threw your way. Thank you for your patience, your knowledge, your generosity, and your love. Thank you for introducing me to your family, i loved them soo much. Thank you for buying me medicine when i was hung over. Thank you for always providing me with a roof and a bed whenever i needed one. Thank you for everything
You will always have a place in my heart and life. I love you, i miss how we use to be, and i hope nothing but the best for you.
I look back now and i dont remember ever not knowing you. i remember meeting you... then i remember being friends on livejournal... then i remember talking to you for hours on the phone and feeling like i had known you my whole life.
Maybe i kept you around for the wrong reasons; maybe it was because i couldnt imagine not having you as my best friend and i felt like you would leave me if i took away all hope of anything more. Maybe i was confused and scared because i didnt know how i felt for you. Maybe i tried to reject feelings i had for you because i have always been terrified of them going all wrong and things being ruined between us. Maybe i have always known where my heart really was but i hoped that i could take it back so i could give us a chance.
I've never wanted to say goodbye and i always thought and hoped we'd stay friends through every and any thing. But now i see how unfair that is of me.
Thank you for being the best best friend anyone could ask for. Thank you for always being there for me and putting up with everything i threw your way. Thank you for your patience, your knowledge, your generosity, and your love. Thank you for introducing me to your family, i loved them soo much. Thank you for buying me medicine when i was hung over. Thank you for always providing me with a roof and a bed whenever i needed one. Thank you for everything
You will always have a place in my heart and life. I love you, i miss how we use to be, and i hope nothing but the best for you.