.....
I let my anger get the best of me today. You know that feeling when you were a kid, trying to play with the big kids? And all they do is form a circle around you and just push you around, poke you, slap you, hit you, annoy you? That's how I feel right now, except it's life that's forming the circle and picking on me. I'm always the type of person that trys not to let the little things get to me and realize how lucky I am as far as what I have in life. Things could be FAR worse for me, and I have it made, but I just pretend that I can just brush off certain little inconviences off my shoulder, but they always in some form or another come back to you. Well, right now it's everything... It's school, my parents, my band, my friends, and my future... I've let all these little things take stabs at my character, and I finally snapped and broke down today. These last two years have probably been the best few years of my life, and they have also been the most confusing. I love being 20, and I fucking hate it. I love my parents but I can fucking hate them too. Same can be said with my friends. It's moments like this, where I don't think I'm as strong of a person as I try to convince myself. Fuck man, I'm just feel pissed off, tired, pushed around, ashamed and disappointed with myself at the same time...