Wow
The last time I didn't post on LJ for two months it was because I didn't have internet access. Very much has not been the case. I've just been extraordinarily apathetic about everything. Not doing well at all and struggling to pull myself out of it. I'm contemplating going into the hospital when this semester is over that's how bad I've gotten.
On the brighter side of things I finally met my friend Suzanne in person after knowing her for a good ten years and she is so wonderful I can't properly describe it. Got to spend time with Erika again, too, which was great. Met my friend Ashley in person and she is so lovely. It makes me even more depressed that we live in the same state yet too far to ever see each other.
Also Big Bang was amazetastic. I just wish I had felt it more and that things the rest of the weekend had gone differently. I dunno. I don't feel like talking about it. I'm really rather depressed that even though Big Bang was incredible I don't feel the excitement I should be feeling or the level of desire to gush about it that I should have. It makes me feel horrible because I know how lucky I was and I appreciate it so much but it's just not in me to express it, if that makes any sense.
Maybe Thanksgiving break will make me feel better. Or not. Whatever. We'll see.
On the brighter side of things I finally met my friend Suzanne in person after knowing her for a good ten years and she is so wonderful I can't properly describe it. Got to spend time with Erika again, too, which was great. Met my friend Ashley in person and she is so lovely. It makes me even more depressed that we live in the same state yet too far to ever see each other.
Also Big Bang was amazetastic. I just wish I had felt it more and that things the rest of the weekend had gone differently. I dunno. I don't feel like talking about it. I'm really rather depressed that even though Big Bang was incredible I don't feel the excitement I should be feeling or the level of desire to gush about it that I should have. It makes me feel horrible because I know how lucky I was and I appreciate it so much but it's just not in me to express it, if that makes any sense.
Maybe Thanksgiving break will make me feel better. Or not. Whatever. We'll see.