back to chicago
You go through high school wishing and waiting for the next four years of your life.
starting college.
starting your real life.
being away from home.
meeting new people.
but i don't know how wonderful it is suppose to be.
i don't how to function here and its so hard to get people
i just feel that people try here. i have not seem anyone on our floor at all
it has been fun with the things that we have done, but i feel like i am always putting in the effort to hangout with people and inviting people but they just either blow it off or just expect it and then blow it off.
i don't think i am a horrible person to be around, but a part of me thinks that my personality just doesn't work here.
it would be so much easier to be with my friends at school together actually having a good time, enjoying myself.
it also sucks being so far away from jake and him putting no effort in helping me through this hard time.
making me second to the television. i am terrified to even talk to him about it because i am going to loose it and say stupid stuff or he wont even care.
the first week here was fun and exciting but tonight it just all hit.
i thought maybe it was just freshmen year people where like this but obviously not.
and my parents would be so disappointed if i transferred. i would feel like i failed.
how can such a cool and wonderful place like chicago have such (excuse me) shitty people here.
the people i am around are wonderful and i have such a fun time with them, i just don't understand how i can't have more friends like that, its almost worse than high school and that takes a lot for me to say.
i'm just ready to say fuck it. and its only my 7th day here. this is a problem.
starting college.
starting your real life.
being away from home.
meeting new people.
but i don't know how wonderful it is suppose to be.
i don't how to function here and its so hard to get people
i just feel that people try here. i have not seem anyone on our floor at all
it has been fun with the things that we have done, but i feel like i am always putting in the effort to hangout with people and inviting people but they just either blow it off or just expect it and then blow it off.
i don't think i am a horrible person to be around, but a part of me thinks that my personality just doesn't work here.
it would be so much easier to be with my friends at school together actually having a good time, enjoying myself.
it also sucks being so far away from jake and him putting no effort in helping me through this hard time.
making me second to the television. i am terrified to even talk to him about it because i am going to loose it and say stupid stuff or he wont even care.
the first week here was fun and exciting but tonight it just all hit.
i thought maybe it was just freshmen year people where like this but obviously not.
and my parents would be so disappointed if i transferred. i would feel like i failed.
how can such a cool and wonderful place like chicago have such (excuse me) shitty people here.
the people i am around are wonderful and i have such a fun time with them, i just don't understand how i can't have more friends like that, its almost worse than high school and that takes a lot for me to say.
i'm just ready to say fuck it. and its only my 7th day here. this is a problem.