flashbacks of me ballin' out.
past:: saturday, october 16, 2004
i was originally going to go in depth as to what transpired after saldy's birthday hotel room bash, but the worst of me exclaimed that im not in the mood right now. steve says that three o clock shroom a thons equate to this feeling that you're stuck in limbo. its a small taste of what death and life are all about. being fascinated with notions such as a computer possesses the archival data or genes of an individual. and the internet being one big ass gene pool that musters up websites and all sorts of other off the wall tangents. id like to speak more freely. like instead of having this docile almost zombie like demeanor about myself. id like to be a "mover and shaker." i assume that i watch post apocalyptic movies in order to understand what humans have evolved to. modern day woman and man arent gathers and hunters anymore. but once shit hits the fan, we must push forward and do the proverbial damn thing. i like using that word a whole lot. it hasnt lost its flavor yet. ever lasting gobstopper. i often times forget to look at things retrospectively or become accustomed to my lingering goals. what got me thinking. after taking shrooms. it felt like i was stuck limbo, the gateway to enlightenment shouldnt be drugs, but they are. i feel like i've awakened from a dormant hiberation of some sorts. i leave a trail of words up there without much of a direction. just pure unadulterated mind babble. shits thats been festering for quite some time. for whatever reason, i gotta just live it up. i do not have a deity to revere, i do not have an organized belief system, i do not have any of the sort. but i believe that my waking life is going off on a different tangent. like theres something enormously big about to happen and im going to witness something extravagant. fuck the spelling of this post. fuck the grammar. fuck syntax. fuck whatever rhetorical rule i break on this post. anyways. i bid farewell for now. peace. lets just say i feel a whole lot better about myself after taking those pieces of shits for breakfast. =)
present day:: damn. i can't believe i used to write like that. what happened?
i was originally going to go in depth as to what transpired after saldy's birthday hotel room bash, but the worst of me exclaimed that im not in the mood right now. steve says that three o clock shroom a thons equate to this feeling that you're stuck in limbo. its a small taste of what death and life are all about. being fascinated with notions such as a computer possesses the archival data or genes of an individual. and the internet being one big ass gene pool that musters up websites and all sorts of other off the wall tangents. id like to speak more freely. like instead of having this docile almost zombie like demeanor about myself. id like to be a "mover and shaker." i assume that i watch post apocalyptic movies in order to understand what humans have evolved to. modern day woman and man arent gathers and hunters anymore. but once shit hits the fan, we must push forward and do the proverbial damn thing. i like using that word a whole lot. it hasnt lost its flavor yet. ever lasting gobstopper. i often times forget to look at things retrospectively or become accustomed to my lingering goals. what got me thinking. after taking shrooms. it felt like i was stuck limbo, the gateway to enlightenment shouldnt be drugs, but they are. i feel like i've awakened from a dormant hiberation of some sorts. i leave a trail of words up there without much of a direction. just pure unadulterated mind babble. shits thats been festering for quite some time. for whatever reason, i gotta just live it up. i do not have a deity to revere, i do not have an organized belief system, i do not have any of the sort. but i believe that my waking life is going off on a different tangent. like theres something enormously big about to happen and im going to witness something extravagant. fuck the spelling of this post. fuck the grammar. fuck syntax. fuck whatever rhetorical rule i break on this post. anyways. i bid farewell for now. peace. lets just say i feel a whole lot better about myself after taking those pieces of shits for breakfast. =)
present day:: damn. i can't believe i used to write like that. what happened?