Better off as the fool, than the owner of that kind of heart
Alright.. that's it. I give. I don't want to be an adult anymore. I forfeit all my responsibilities, all my days of waking up early to go to work, all my bank overdraft fees, and the bills, rent, going every single Sunday for groceries... that's it. I don't want it anymore. I want Looney Tunes, footy pajamas, and a bottle of apple juice. Ooooor, can I have a white russian, a box of money, and a blowjob?
Add to that list, a nice fucking bath tub. It's been cold as hell, and mine's no good for soaks. As if I have that kind of time.
I've just basically been bred to hate this time of year. I guess I just don't quite understand the "buy everyone I know something" mind set. I'm all about family, and friends, and togetherness, and nice times, but I don't understand why in order for you to have that, everyone had to receive an insane amount of gifts, that you probably wouldn't love all that much in a few weeks anyway.
I promise I'm way more fun-loving and sunshiny in person, ask this one dude, he'll vouch for me.
I've just been in a bad mood for... um, like 3 months. I just don't understand what I have done, or who I've pissed off, that they've decided to take such a gigantic shit on me and on my life. Things have just been... really hard to get through... I can't imagine how I would have gotten through certain things in recent months without going bat shit crazy, if it weren't for a certain someone... they know who they are. But believe me, there would have been far more crazy babble on here if I hadn't that kind of warmth then and now.
I shouldn't be so cynical about things though. I have a lot of good in my life too. A lot of good that I'm sure most people don't have. But like I said, things have just been taxing. Every little step ahead I get, I go falling back a little farther, and I can't even get level with where I was. I just keep sinking further and further... ahhhhhhhhhh.
But, I haven't forgotten to stop and look at how many of the little things I have and love. Like, sex, drugs, and rock and roll.
And I'm out.