Because of our past, it has formed what I am today
I haven't had my belly "full" in weeks it seems. We ordered pizza tonight, and I pigged out. I don't think I've ever eaten 4 pieces of pizza all at once in my life... of course I hadn't had anything all day to eat other than a piece of gum. So now at least I've filled one thing missing...
though, there's so much still missing. I feel as if I've crumpled into 1000 pieces, and all the corners have been joined together, and most of the middle is near complete, but there are a select few pieces that have turned up missing, I've searched and searched for them... but it's a tiring process. I don't want to give up hope, they've got to be around here somewhere.
Though... even without those missing pieces, I'm a happy person. Things aren't horribly bad for me. I have no real right to complain.
Today at work was wonderful. Dusty said to me, "Well, I hope they love down there, as much as we love you up here." It just made me feel absolutely amazing. I love my job so much. I'm really going to miss it. No matter how bad the pay is, it was still a really great job. It also makes me feel good to know that I'll have a good reference for jobs I apply for down the road.
It's strange to think I will miss it here. I'm actually getting the oppourtunity to leave a place that I hate so much. There are some really great people that I've gotten to know, and grow to love. Each and every one of you has made some sort of impact on my life, be it good or bad, they are still experiences that will be ingrained in my mind.
Kristen: You have become the greatest friend that I have ever had. You've let me tell you things I thought I could never divulge to anyone, and never judged me in the process. I've shared some of my best memories with you, and it makes me feel so good to be able to call someone my best friend. I know I can always come to you with anything, and the same goes you. It's strange how different, and how similar we are all at the same time. Which I think is what I love most about you. I'll always love you my little chicken, and don't think just because I'm moving you'll be forgotten. We're still moving to Cancun, and living out our dream... (or England, I haven't decided yet... hehe.)
Jeremy: My baby boy. I will NEVER forget the time that we stayed together. Lying in bed just talking about any and everything, will always be special in my heart. I know we are both sick to death of dollar double cheese burgers, and ramen noodles. The chamomile tea will always be hilarious to me and, the Continental Inn will never be the same now because of us... tee hee. I love you so much, and I hope you never forget that. You will ALWAYS be special to me, and when Elipsis makes it big, you better not forget about me... you hot little Chives you... hehe
Kayla: Getting out of Journalism work to get on livejournal will always be a favorite school memory of mine, not to mention leaving school early everyday. You introduced me to MCR, and because of that, I got to see them live, and met Gerard and Ray. Not to mention Flogging Molly, and From Autumn to Ashes. That will always be one of the funnest days of my life. Thanks for always keeping me laughing, and remember to keep the kuh kuh alive!
Amanda: Your house will always freak me out, because of the zoo it is, and that creepy ghost you claim is there. lol Thanks for feeding me beef stew the night when I was starving... I'll always remember that. Also, swimming in your pool, and staying the night at your house. I never fail to have fun when I am around you, and you have one of the sweetest hearts. I love ya hon.
Patrick: You are just just hilarious beyond imagination. Don't forget we are going to get that Louisville Slugger and knock out some niggers.... haha
Daniel: "Sir, could you please turn off your truck, I can't hear you?" tee hee You are just so nice. Thank you so much for taking me to see the best concert ever. Our fine dining at the WalMart lawn chair "cafe" of Wendy's was too perfect. Thank you so much for standing with my while I watched From Autumn to Ashes, so I didn't feel stupid standing there by myself. Our insomniac chats are some of the funniest I've ever had.
Joshy: I don't even know where to begin with you. Getting to know you has just been absolutely wonderful. Don't you forget how our conversations led to inspiration for you livejournal topics... Meeting Henry Rollins with you was one of the greatest experiences ever!!! And, eating Digoirno pizza, and watching that fucked up movie Happiness was just great. I can't even to begin to explain how great a friend you have been to me. I've never had someone make me laugh as much as you have. Talking with you for hours on end about nothing in particular always makes my day. Everything about you just reeks goodness, and you are quite simply one of my favorite people in the world.
Wayne: I hate that we couldn't hang out longer before I left, but from what I can tell you are a great guy. Thanks for letting me finally see Mean Girls, and for the apple twist... ;) I promise will met up again here soon.
Daniel H: You have such a good soul. It was really cool getting to know you, having the ability to freak you out with my moms and I's crazy asses... lol I wish nothing but good things for you.
Ashley: Now that I'm moving closer to your goth athe we better hang out! I don't really need to say good-bye to you, because hopefully we will be seeing more of each other. I'm as bad as a hag can get.. and don't you forget it you goth freak... hehe
Mandy &Erica: I don't need to say good-bye to you guys either, because we will get to see each other very shortly... ALL THE TIME! :-D I simply can't wait. It makes me feel much more secure to know I'll be going to a place that is so far from my old home, and having fimilar faces to guide me. I love you both so much.
Jennifer: Our chats on how much guys can suck, but how much we love them are the greatest. You are one of the nicest people I've ever known. I cherish our friendship each day, and I promise you, one day I will come and hang with you at EKU! I can't tell you how much that night you and Mandy took me out meant to me. You are just amazing.
Kevin: Our night full of adventures, the Abdominable Snowman, and the Wrinkler will always be something I'll remember. It was by far the best birthday I ever had. Keep on keeping on.
Jordan: Even though we've never met, you are definitely one very cool person. You always seem to know just what to say to brighten my day. Getting to know you has just been awesome, and your taste in music is the most awesome ever. Hopefully one day we can meet. ;)
I will really miss you guys. You all mean so much to me.