Just To Say I'm Gonna Be Okay & I Love My Buddy...
it's funny how when u've lost so much & think u have no one/nowhere to turn to, an old friend shows ^ on a white horse coming to ur rescue. lol. however, odd that may seem that they're always there when u need them the most & not so much anymore when u don't... it's always a pleasant surprise. from the moment justin left today ^ until roughly 5:00 in the a.m. i have been on the phone w/ a person i can depend on so much... in fact there are only 2 other ppl i can count on as much as i can him... one's me, & the other i'm not sure as to just how much i can count on at the current time. but i must say it was great to talk to him for so long, especially w/ as much as i've been falling apart at night lately. i'm good during the day, but at night it gets a lil harder to hold it together when i can't slp & have nothing to do but think. but i guess that’s life. unfortunately we're in the same boat at the moment... we both lost the only ppl we've truly loved/been in love w/ over shit that we had little/no control over & r currently getting the most fucked up mixed signals imaginable. so it has been decided that if we're both in an absolutely horrible predicament (like the one we're in now) when we're 21 we shall run off to vegas & elope. lmmfao!!! for some reason i don't see that happening, but it's still a rather hysterical thought. so this wkend i'm goin over there & we're gonna have our "girls night" karaoke hair-dying session. lol. how i do love having metrosexual friends. but for now i must attempt to slp before returning to what was beginning to feel a lil like my normal life for a day or so that is now even more abnormal than before.
i woke up early this morning around 4 a.m.
w/ the moon shining bright as headlights on the interstate
i pulled the covers over my head & tried to catch some sleep
but thoughts of us kept keeping me awake
ever since u found urself in someone else's arms
i've been tryin' my best to get along
but that's ok
there's nothing left to say, but
take ur records, take ur freedom
take ur memories i don't need'em
take ur space & take ur reasons
but u'll think of me
& take ur cat & leave my sweater
'cause we have nothing left to weather
in fact i'll feel a whole lot better
but u'll think of me, u'll think of me
i went out driving trying to clear my head
i tried to sweep out all the ruins that my emotions left
i guess i'm feeling just a little tired of this
& all the baggage that seems to still exist
it seems the only blessing i have left to my name
is not knowing what we could have been
what we should have been
so
take ur records, take ur freedom
take ur memories i don't need'em
take ur space & take ur reasons
but u'll think of me
& take ur cat & leave my sweater
'cause we have nothing left to weather
in fact i'll feel a whole lot better
but u'll think of me
someday i'm gonna run across ur mind
don't worry, i'll be fine
i'm gonna be alright
while u're sleeping w/ ur pride
wishing i could hold u tight
i'll be over u
& on w/ my life
so take ur records, take ur freedom
take ur memories i don't need'em
& take ur cat & leave my sweater
'cause we have nothing left to weather
in fact i'll feel a whole lot better
but u'll think of me
so take ur records, take ur freedom
take ur memories i don't need'em
take ur space and all ur reasons
but u'll think of me
& take ur cat & leave my sweater
'cause we got nothing left to weather
in fact i'll feel a whole lot better
but u'll think of me, u'll think of me, yeah
& u're gonna think of me
oh someday baby, someday