UGH
I vaguely want to die. Not really, but seriously, I didn't get into non-major voice at all. I mean, I know I'm not great, but Geez, I'm not THAT bad. I'm so upset. I'm so fucking spastic when it comes to auditions. I heard my roommate sing who got into beginning class voice, and she's decent, but she's certainly not any better than I am. And this is stupid, but I'm a little uncontrollably towards Mary because kept telling me that she thought I could get into the SOM for next quarter, which certainly isn't going to happen, and giving me so many compliments about how good I sounded this summer. I told her to be brutally honest, and she thought I could do it. But the problem is that she sent me off to Northwestern with three pretty great-sounding pieces, and they are no longer so great-sounding. It's not her fault at all. I'm out of my comfort zone, and I'm intimidated. Even the people practicing instruments in the practice rooms around me intimidate me. And when I get to an audition, they aren't even DECENT sounding. They sound disgusting and I can't even stay in tune. Notes go everywhere. Seriously: it's like a different voice is coming out of my body. I'm not exaggerating.
And it doesn't help that most of the people in non-major voice are theatre majors, so a lot of them are pretty great.
I'm losing the will to go on with all of this, but I know I'll just wither up and die without it.
I want my mommy. Or my Kevin.
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And it doesn't help that most of the people in non-major voice are theatre majors, so a lot of them are pretty great.
I'm losing the will to go on with all of this, but I know I'll just wither up and die without it.
I want my mommy. Or my Kevin.
<3 CE