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Oh my god, I just wanted to say that I love Eric, Kevin, Shelly, and Audrey. You guys were soooo good to me this weekend. I wish I could personally kiss each of you...but I think only one person will welcome that idea...I wonder who that could be...it's a mystery.
Yeah so i have sold my soul to cardsmart for real. I have no time for anything, all I do is read stuff, call people, build things (poorly by the bruises on my hands...ooopps i cant use a mallet), and drive every where.
Interesting story...today I was looking through my "personal filing cabinet" online...and I came across an email I had sent myself Jan 1, 2002. I clicked on it, and lets just say it was a conversation I had with someone at about 5 am. And before the conversation I copied, I wrote "If you ever think you are unloved, just remember this..." And oh my god that's what I needed so badly today. Granted, the person I was talking to probably doesn't feel the same way, but just remembering how I felt when I heard this, helped me. I am so stressed, confused, and just plain pissed off. But what can ya do?!? (Mr Jurich language...do the shrug). Can't always get what you want, and sooner or later you realize that it really wasnt what you thought it was...and you were lying to yourself the whole time to make yourself happy.
But what I was really wondering about today was, can I redo my birthday? haha
Yeah so i have sold my soul to cardsmart for real. I have no time for anything, all I do is read stuff, call people, build things (poorly by the bruises on my hands...ooopps i cant use a mallet), and drive every where.
Interesting story...today I was looking through my "personal filing cabinet" online...and I came across an email I had sent myself Jan 1, 2002. I clicked on it, and lets just say it was a conversation I had with someone at about 5 am. And before the conversation I copied, I wrote "If you ever think you are unloved, just remember this..." And oh my god that's what I needed so badly today. Granted, the person I was talking to probably doesn't feel the same way, but just remembering how I felt when I heard this, helped me. I am so stressed, confused, and just plain pissed off. But what can ya do?!? (Mr Jurich language...do the shrug). Can't always get what you want, and sooner or later you realize that it really wasnt what you thought it was...and you were lying to yourself the whole time to make yourself happy.
But what I was really wondering about today was, can I redo my birthday? haha