.Weekend.Warrior.
MAYDAY.
Things are starting to look up.
I've been beating myself up so badly recently. Over my artwork, my typical flaws and my just plain awful social awkwardness. But today... today I feel... like me. I haven't felt that way in a long time, I don't really fall into any particular type of person, which i guess is why its so hard for me to find myself some days, I'm always learning something new about myself. It's intriguing, mind boggling and stressful, so today is a good day.
The one thing I absolutely adore about the city, is people watching. I don't really listen to music or read books on my journey to and from school. I find the people entertaining enough. Their individual characteristics, the books their reading. The different styles, clothes. The texture of their bags.
I find people so damn fascinating.
Speaking of fascinating people.
There's one professor that has made me open my eyes, if only for a moment to everything that surrounds me. Not to say that I wasn't aware already, but the refined details of everything seem to matter now.
He has a very peculiar teaching style, but I love it. He rants. He'll ask you a question, and when you respond, he runs with the idea, whether it is good or bad or somewhere in between. Responding to a question from every angle is your friend. I want to ravage his brain.
He's the one that's against advertising, but I'm sure I'll find a way to win him over.
side note: he also resembles Grisom from CSI
I want to find a social life somewhere between the books and work. In a city full of hundreds of thousands of people, you'd think that it would be strange for a person to feel lonely. Torontonians I find are particularly cut off from the rest of the world. Smiles are rare and hello's are extinct, everyone has made a mental note to avoid social contact unless otherwise necessary.
hrmm.... strange strange world.
ps. pet kitties for the office (jack and jill) and in love with The Office? I think so.
Things are starting to look up.
I've been beating myself up so badly recently. Over my artwork, my typical flaws and my just plain awful social awkwardness. But today... today I feel... like me. I haven't felt that way in a long time, I don't really fall into any particular type of person, which i guess is why its so hard for me to find myself some days, I'm always learning something new about myself. It's intriguing, mind boggling and stressful, so today is a good day.
The one thing I absolutely adore about the city, is people watching. I don't really listen to music or read books on my journey to and from school. I find the people entertaining enough. Their individual characteristics, the books their reading. The different styles, clothes. The texture of their bags.
I find people so damn fascinating.
Speaking of fascinating people.
There's one professor that has made me open my eyes, if only for a moment to everything that surrounds me. Not to say that I wasn't aware already, but the refined details of everything seem to matter now.
He has a very peculiar teaching style, but I love it. He rants. He'll ask you a question, and when you respond, he runs with the idea, whether it is good or bad or somewhere in between. Responding to a question from every angle is your friend. I want to ravage his brain.
He's the one that's against advertising, but I'm sure I'll find a way to win him over.
side note: he also resembles Grisom from CSI
I want to find a social life somewhere between the books and work. In a city full of hundreds of thousands of people, you'd think that it would be strange for a person to feel lonely. Torontonians I find are particularly cut off from the rest of the world. Smiles are rare and hello's are extinct, everyone has made a mental note to avoid social contact unless otherwise necessary.
hrmm.... strange strange world.
ps. pet kitties for the office (jack and jill) and in love with The Office? I think so.