Fanfic Vent
So, I didn't do much for the 4th of July apart from the usual Doctor Who stuff. My dad came home early from a business trip to Japan because he got sick. *Crosses fingers I don't get it.* My mom went to Donna's new house for a party. She ate a lot, but said the food wasn't amazing. She also said the fireworks were really loud there, so I'm so glad I didn't go because I was on the fence. [sarcasm] I so would have loved to be cowering in front of a bunch of people with noise canceling headphones [/sarcasm].
Now, I don't know whether to call this a vent or a rant. Maybe both. I was finishing reading this fic on Whofic on the 4th. It's called "Making Headway." My venting will contain spoilers for this fanfic, but I almost don't recommend reading it anyway unless you want to be royally pissed off in the end lol. Tragic story, but well written and then once I reached the end I felt like I had been just kicked in the face. :( I've read plenty of whump stories about the Tenth Doctor, some pretty nasty ones even, but they always had a happy ending. This is the first one I read that had a sad ending and I just wanted to scream! I was extremely upset by it. Yes, there was an alternative happy ending written for the fic too, but the author preferred the sad one, so it feels like that one is the real one. :( I understand why the sad ending was written and it is well written and probably more realistic. However, I prefer to read these fics to escape, so I like a happy ending or even just a bittersweet one. If I wanted reality, then I wouldn't be reading fiction.
So, this fic got me really riled up especially after devoting quite a few hours into it because it was long, only to not get any payoff in the end. It felt so unfair. I was pretty much mentally throwing a tantrum in my head lol. So, what was the story actually about? Well, the Tenth Doctor gets a brain injury and the TARDIS sends him to Torchwood for help. Only problem is he lost his memory and he doesn't remember anything of the events past season two of Doctor Who. He also gets seizures and gets worse and worse and this goes on for a long time, while Torchwood are trying to figure out what's wrong with him. He nearly dies, but then they figure out what's wrong and he appears to be recovering in the later part of the story, and this is when the story really kicked me in the guts. He gets a sudden brain hemorrhage and just becomes a vegetable with no hope of recovery. They couldn't fix The Doctor after all that time. :( The end has Jack still taking care of the brain dead Doctor hundreds of years into the future (they had a relationship in this story). My heart shattered into a million pieces and I was so angry. I know that's real for a lot of people too with brain damage, but I couldn't think of a worse fate for The Doctor and his brilliant mind to be reduced to that. It seems so cruel. I'm probably taking this story too seriously, and it's just that, a story, but that just shows how well written it is. This has stuck with me for a while, but I've already moved on to a similar length whump fic, but one which will probably more likely have a happy ending.
The happy alternative to this one though, as unrealistic as it probably is, did cheer me up. Instead of going brain dead, The Doctor is saved by Jack's kiss of life and he miraculously recovers, healing himself. So if only Jack had kissed him he would have been fine. You can already guess he didn't kiss him in the sad ending. Like I said, probably unrealistic and I see why the author went with the more devastating ending, but this was nice to have, so I forgive the author somewhat. Yet, the sad ending remains and I'll probably never get over it. :( I don't think I've ever felt more intensely over a fanfic, and I still grumble about it, but going to have to move on and maybe try to pretend I never read it lol.
Now, I don't know whether to call this a vent or a rant. Maybe both. I was finishing reading this fic on Whofic on the 4th. It's called "Making Headway." My venting will contain spoilers for this fanfic, but I almost don't recommend reading it anyway unless you want to be royally pissed off in the end lol. Tragic story, but well written and then once I reached the end I felt like I had been just kicked in the face. :( I've read plenty of whump stories about the Tenth Doctor, some pretty nasty ones even, but they always had a happy ending. This is the first one I read that had a sad ending and I just wanted to scream! I was extremely upset by it. Yes, there was an alternative happy ending written for the fic too, but the author preferred the sad one, so it feels like that one is the real one. :( I understand why the sad ending was written and it is well written and probably more realistic. However, I prefer to read these fics to escape, so I like a happy ending or even just a bittersweet one. If I wanted reality, then I wouldn't be reading fiction.
So, this fic got me really riled up especially after devoting quite a few hours into it because it was long, only to not get any payoff in the end. It felt so unfair. I was pretty much mentally throwing a tantrum in my head lol. So, what was the story actually about? Well, the Tenth Doctor gets a brain injury and the TARDIS sends him to Torchwood for help. Only problem is he lost his memory and he doesn't remember anything of the events past season two of Doctor Who. He also gets seizures and gets worse and worse and this goes on for a long time, while Torchwood are trying to figure out what's wrong with him. He nearly dies, but then they figure out what's wrong and he appears to be recovering in the later part of the story, and this is when the story really kicked me in the guts. He gets a sudden brain hemorrhage and just becomes a vegetable with no hope of recovery. They couldn't fix The Doctor after all that time. :( The end has Jack still taking care of the brain dead Doctor hundreds of years into the future (they had a relationship in this story). My heart shattered into a million pieces and I was so angry. I know that's real for a lot of people too with brain damage, but I couldn't think of a worse fate for The Doctor and his brilliant mind to be reduced to that. It seems so cruel. I'm probably taking this story too seriously, and it's just that, a story, but that just shows how well written it is. This has stuck with me for a while, but I've already moved on to a similar length whump fic, but one which will probably more likely have a happy ending.
The happy alternative to this one though, as unrealistic as it probably is, did cheer me up. Instead of going brain dead, The Doctor is saved by Jack's kiss of life and he miraculously recovers, healing himself. So if only Jack had kissed him he would have been fine. You can already guess he didn't kiss him in the sad ending. Like I said, probably unrealistic and I see why the author went with the more devastating ending, but this was nice to have, so I forgive the author somewhat. Yet, the sad ending remains and I'll probably never get over it. :( I don't think I've ever felt more intensely over a fanfic, and I still grumble about it, but going to have to move on and maybe try to pretend I never read it lol.