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So, it really has been forever since i last posted. I don't even remember when or what the post was.. and i'm way too lazy to just look back. Oh well. I'm in a funk. I don't know why but i feel as if i'm going through the motions of life. I go to work, sleep go to the gym and al that good stuff. I just feel a lack of incentive in my life at the moment. As if i'm waiting for the impetus. to be honest with you it feels as if i'm waiting for the messiah. It feels like once i get the "Go Ahead" everything will swing into motion and i will feel productive again. Now herein lies the problem... I don't know what it is, when it will be... I just have a feeling that i'm waiting for something to push me back into life. it's like I'm caught in the eye of the storm and everything is calm... there are so many things to do .. but i can't because i know there's more to come and if i do anything right now it'll be pointless once the rest f the storm hits. At the moment i don't really know if i'm making sense or whatnot. I'm sure that if i re-read this in a day or even a half hour i would be confused. Don't get me wrong.. i love my life.. i have a great apartment, a perfect boyfriend, a good job at the moment... i suppose it;s the routine that's getting to me. I'm not good with routines... I'm much better in ciaos. But then again if i where going through ciaos i wouldn;t have time to discern how i feel.. who knows, i certainly don't. here's a big chance that what i;m going through is just the process of being a stable ,mature adult (which would explain why i'm not used to it).
So that was my ramble for this 6 month period.
ciao,
*~*~*Ximena~*~*~
So that was my ramble for this 6 month period.
ciao,
*~*~*Ximena~*~*~