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ok. umm. i hated my first day of school. i have never felt so alone in my life. I was fighting back tears all day because i knew i would have been having a blast at newberry. i miss everyone.
i miss joyce. she always made me smile no matter what. and crystal who kept me entertained in class. i miss morgan who god knows was fricken hilarious. i miss chelsea and samantha. and filup and jacob. i even miss alex's stupid antics. [now that is sad]. people i grew up with are gone..and it seems so terrible.
i sat alone today at lunch and it sucked. these people don't take new comers in too well.
i feel so worthless when they look at me like *ew. what the hell is she doing here?* i got A LOT of those looks today. i swear i wanted to call crystal or joyce or morgan just to hear them because to me their voices would have been some comfort. to hear them tell me it will get better..or to slap a bitch in the face..
and when mom asks if i met anybody..i say no..and she sees how let down i am. she asked me if i was gonna be ok...and i guess i said yea. because maybe it wont be like this for too long. but i need people..i thrive off of people. im not a loner.
idk..maybe im just "homesick" but in a different meaning.
i miss joyce. she always made me smile no matter what. and crystal who kept me entertained in class. i miss morgan who god knows was fricken hilarious. i miss chelsea and samantha. and filup and jacob. i even miss alex's stupid antics. [now that is sad]. people i grew up with are gone..and it seems so terrible.
i sat alone today at lunch and it sucked. these people don't take new comers in too well.
i feel so worthless when they look at me like *ew. what the hell is she doing here?* i got A LOT of those looks today. i swear i wanted to call crystal or joyce or morgan just to hear them because to me their voices would have been some comfort. to hear them tell me it will get better..or to slap a bitch in the face..
and when mom asks if i met anybody..i say no..and she sees how let down i am. she asked me if i was gonna be ok...and i guess i said yea. because maybe it wont be like this for too long. but i need people..i thrive off of people. im not a loner.
idk..maybe im just "homesick" but in a different meaning.