An Entry Dedicated To The (Original) and New Second Family
I love you guys, so, so much.
I miss the littlest things. and the biggest things.
I miss Micky's basement with all of you for her birthday last year.
You all remember that? Remember how amazing that was?
It was the first time there was a picture of all of us together too in her pool.
I was just looking through these, as I'm sitting here, waiting for all of this caffeine to wear off.
And it's so unfair to you, because I have been doing an awful job trying to keep up with you guys.
I want to visit every single one of you. And I know, that you all took the time to see me when I was at school.
I'm trying, I really am.
It's just .. a little difficult .. because now, since I'm not in school, I've had to grow up a little bit faster.
Balance a full time job and study for a prep test and help around the house when asked to and pay for all of my bills that could go towards gas money, etcetcetc.
Its something very new to me, that I need to get used to and comfortable with, so please bear with me on time.
I hate that I haven't been able to see Christian. We live in the same town and not once have we seen each other.
Because he has to go to school during the day and then I work nights/weekends and get too exhausted to do anything.
I want to see you Christian. I've got a couple of free days this week. <3
I miss Micky terribly, I feel that tugging. I miss Vanessa. I miss Evan. I miss Mike (who I think I saw walking down my street at 11:30 at night?).
I miss all of you.
And of course I miss the "newbies"... Will, so far away. I miss you. Sarah, I miss you. Nicole, I miss you brother.
I miss how easy it was to get together all the time and there was never really anything in the way.
Just homework or working one day a week.
I did not see any of you enough this summer. Not by a long shot. I want this summer to be amazing. I want to practically LIVE with you all.
My throats getting choked up just writing this.
It may be just because I'm over tired.. and worked 45 + hours this week.
It may be both. I just..
I love and miss you guys so much. But even saying or writing it constantly, it's never enough to express how much I really do.
It never adds up to how strongly I feel about each one of you.
We may not talk as much, but always know, that I am thinking about each and every one of you every day that passes by.
<3
I miss the littlest things. and the biggest things.
I miss Micky's basement with all of you for her birthday last year.
You all remember that? Remember how amazing that was?
It was the first time there was a picture of all of us together too in her pool.
I was just looking through these, as I'm sitting here, waiting for all of this caffeine to wear off.
And it's so unfair to you, because I have been doing an awful job trying to keep up with you guys.
I want to visit every single one of you. And I know, that you all took the time to see me when I was at school.
I'm trying, I really am.
It's just .. a little difficult .. because now, since I'm not in school, I've had to grow up a little bit faster.
Balance a full time job and study for a prep test and help around the house when asked to and pay for all of my bills that could go towards gas money, etcetcetc.
Its something very new to me, that I need to get used to and comfortable with, so please bear with me on time.
I hate that I haven't been able to see Christian. We live in the same town and not once have we seen each other.
Because he has to go to school during the day and then I work nights/weekends and get too exhausted to do anything.
I want to see you Christian. I've got a couple of free days this week. <3
I miss Micky terribly, I feel that tugging. I miss Vanessa. I miss Evan. I miss Mike (who I think I saw walking down my street at 11:30 at night?).
I miss all of you.
And of course I miss the "newbies"... Will, so far away. I miss you. Sarah, I miss you. Nicole, I miss you brother.
I miss how easy it was to get together all the time and there was never really anything in the way.
Just homework or working one day a week.
I did not see any of you enough this summer. Not by a long shot. I want this summer to be amazing. I want to practically LIVE with you all.
My throats getting choked up just writing this.
It may be just because I'm over tired.. and worked 45 + hours this week.
It may be both. I just..
I love and miss you guys so much. But even saying or writing it constantly, it's never enough to express how much I really do.
It never adds up to how strongly I feel about each one of you.
We may not talk as much, but always know, that I am thinking about each and every one of you every day that passes by.
<3