K Mart Sucks.
I come home every night and I'm tired, and I want to go to bed, although if I do that... then I can't sleep in until its time to get up for work... so I can't win. Being back at works sucks. Life was easier while I was out.
I miss Koda. I don't seem to really spend enough time with her now, and I feel guilty. I love that baby girl and it sucks not getting to be around her as much.
I miss Nathan. We still talk just about as much as we used to... he just has to deal with my constant "hold on's" while I'm working... and that's shitty. I can't wait until he comes back up this way.
I miss Blue... I haven't seen her in over a month... and this whole thing just sucks. Wanted to meet with her at the club this coming Wednesday, but I'm realizing now that its not going to work out. I have NO monies. Not even a dollar. Because well I'm waiting on like 3 different paychecks. Jeesh!
And though I still see him at work, I miss Rob too. Just because he's such a sweetheart.
Life isn't nearly as bad as I bitch about it... I'd just rather not work... if I could pull off making my own business I'd do it in a heartbeat. But eh... off to work I go... 2-10 every Friday through Tuesday. Ick. I miss having a real life with real time... and i could go to stores and stuff... but now i can only do that on my days off. Which are in the middle of the week.
I can't even clear my thoughts enough to write a real journal entry. I'm totally rambling.
I miss Koda. I don't seem to really spend enough time with her now, and I feel guilty. I love that baby girl and it sucks not getting to be around her as much.
I miss Nathan. We still talk just about as much as we used to... he just has to deal with my constant "hold on's" while I'm working... and that's shitty. I can't wait until he comes back up this way.
I miss Blue... I haven't seen her in over a month... and this whole thing just sucks. Wanted to meet with her at the club this coming Wednesday, but I'm realizing now that its not going to work out. I have NO monies. Not even a dollar. Because well I'm waiting on like 3 different paychecks. Jeesh!
And though I still see him at work, I miss Rob too. Just because he's such a sweetheart.
Life isn't nearly as bad as I bitch about it... I'd just rather not work... if I could pull off making my own business I'd do it in a heartbeat. But eh... off to work I go... 2-10 every Friday through Tuesday. Ick. I miss having a real life with real time... and i could go to stores and stuff... but now i can only do that on my days off. Which are in the middle of the week.
I can't even clear my thoughts enough to write a real journal entry. I'm totally rambling.