where i have been and where i am going.

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All righty well i have not done this in so long so bare with me. I moved into my new house now and i finaly got my computer going again it was boked. HAHAH i hate tecnology. It is so stuipid. I was ment to go out with a friend today but she must have just forgot. LAME, GOD. WEll my girl is all the way in Germany. SO i am kinda lonly. but what the hell it will all get better. My life has been extreemly odd latly. I mean if any of you out there who really read my Ljs want to know more E-mail me but other wise i just want you all to know that is why i have been so out of the LOOP. well i hope i get a job soon i need money. I had so much going for me at one point and i seemed to kill it all. Who knows though it seems like when you kill one thing another thing starts up. you can never have it all can you? Life sets bits of its self in front of you and you have to pick which bits you are going to take and which you are going to trought aside. And as for me i seem to trough alot aside. I know what i want but being 16 i am not able to get it all right now and i hate haveing to remember that. I see that soon i am going on a 4 week trip. Far away too. GOd i guess that one i can't really through aside but it might be good for me. I wish it was to Ney York but nope. And in other news ........what other news......????? I have been very out of it i really should get a hold of my life alittle but what the hell as soon as we turn around school will start up again. Life is so wild. WIll any one ever be able to get full hold of it. Or is that death. ARe we never ment to understand every part of life un till we die. I think that when you fully know your self an know every thing you want you are to happy and that is death. That is when you die. I think that if you did not have that every day chalenge then you would not have a reason to live. THat is why so many people die or kill them selfs when they are famous they are to happy and they can't handle it. we have to have pain to live it is humman nature.
well i am very healthy then. peace, love, and understanding.