eng 118: compare and contrast
for some reason i cant even explain what was said tonight really bothered me. im sure by my response you can tell i still love you. weakness. that is never a good sign. looks like you have the upper hand, didnt you always want the upper hand? and i love you, but you dont love me because she (at one point and time) loved me. blah, she probibally still does love me but i stopped going to visit her because i knew it hurt you, even if we werent together anymore. i always thought that one day we would end up back together. i dont know how to explain it, that was just always how i felt deep down inside. guess this will make me think twice before trusting my gut instinct anymore.
i just dont get how you could hold that against me in this way. you, ms always understanding. youve made mistakes too and i dont hold those against you, infact i try to downplay them and make you feel better about yourself...what the fuck was i thinking? i guess you didnt know that the whole reason this mistake happened was because of you. oops, i guess you know now..maybe not entirely your fault, in the physical sense...but, like you, i thought i could run away from things. i thought that if i could just forget it all, ever minute we spent together good or bad that maybe i could go on living a normal life. that if, for just one solitary minute, i could not be thinking about you that life would be good.
so, now that youve made it abundently clear that it doesnt matter anymore, whats the point in not hanging out with her? you were the reason i dropped her like a bad habit. not because of my health. not because of my friends, or lack there of. maybe a little bit because of that time i died, but the only reason that counts is because of what you said to me sitting at that table.
and those txtmsgs you sent me...im not going to read them. i need to get to sleep sometime tonight unlike other people. with this shitty cold and all, and everything thats racing through my mind tonight..geez, maybe i should just pull the cork on this one. maybe i wont make it to the bed even..
You Know, better living through chemistry.
And no i wont be calling you from a hospital, but you should give me a holla after whenev. maybe we should have a fact to face tomorrow night to clear this up. so get ahold of me. <3
i just dont get how you could hold that against me in this way. you, ms always understanding. youve made mistakes too and i dont hold those against you, infact i try to downplay them and make you feel better about yourself...what the fuck was i thinking? i guess you didnt know that the whole reason this mistake happened was because of you. oops, i guess you know now..maybe not entirely your fault, in the physical sense...but, like you, i thought i could run away from things. i thought that if i could just forget it all, ever minute we spent together good or bad that maybe i could go on living a normal life. that if, for just one solitary minute, i could not be thinking about you that life would be good.
so, now that youve made it abundently clear that it doesnt matter anymore, whats the point in not hanging out with her? you were the reason i dropped her like a bad habit. not because of my health. not because of my friends, or lack there of. maybe a little bit because of that time i died, but the only reason that counts is because of what you said to me sitting at that table.
and those txtmsgs you sent me...im not going to read them. i need to get to sleep sometime tonight unlike other people. with this shitty cold and all, and everything thats racing through my mind tonight..geez, maybe i should just pull the cork on this one. maybe i wont make it to the bed even..
You Know, better living through chemistry.
And no i wont be calling you from a hospital, but you should give me a holla after whenev. maybe we should have a fact to face tomorrow night to clear this up. so get ahold of me. <3