why does it hurt so bad???
i want to fall head over heels for this boy... i am so pathetic that i cant sleep... i am awake sitting online waiting for him to come home and come on knowing he isnt and still sitting, waiting for contact... a phone call, a whisper, anything.... ahhh why does life have to be like this... i have never felt this way before... angered, anxious, vunerable, and a whole lot of other emotions just in a blender making me tingle all over... i dont do love so what is up...??? i am a sap waiting for reasons to make excuses knowing that i have fallen, just without my parachute and ahh!!!!!!! k i am going to stop.. if only he felt the same way.....