optimistism
well I don't really know if I have enough to say to make an entry, but I just have alot on my mind to today. mostly about love and the heart..hmm, I wonder y.
tired to make a few calls tonight to some people I don't get to talk to reguarly anymore, it's good to hear old voices and their love.
I wish I could change some things right now, but I guess things are going as they are supposed to, but I wonder where my paths going to end at.
i'm really craving to find someone right now, or maybe i just want that love...i'm sure every person on here as somehow experienced that incredible thing. whether its loving somone so much that you would do anything for them and die w/o them and not get it recpricated, or being in that relationship where love is so incredible that you want to spend every waking moment together..do anything for one another,etc. Love is so powerful and sometimes I am frightened of the many challenges it can overcome, amazing.
I wish I could find that person, I have so much love to give and no one understands that, i wish someone would let me in. that's not all my thoughts on it, but I guess it's long enough, i could go for hours....
on another note, watched the band this weekend..Band kids...let me tell you how jealous I am of you. I miss being out on that field performing in front of a crowd, having all eyes on me, and getting that rush when they go wild, clap, and scream, filling those chills in your body, and the joy it feels to get first or sweepstakes. that's one my great passions that I don't think I will ever get rid of.
things to do: redoing my room, getting a pet, getting a job, and some things left unsaid..;)
tired to make a few calls tonight to some people I don't get to talk to reguarly anymore, it's good to hear old voices and their love.
I wish I could change some things right now, but I guess things are going as they are supposed to, but I wonder where my paths going to end at.
i'm really craving to find someone right now, or maybe i just want that love...i'm sure every person on here as somehow experienced that incredible thing. whether its loving somone so much that you would do anything for them and die w/o them and not get it recpricated, or being in that relationship where love is so incredible that you want to spend every waking moment together..do anything for one another,etc. Love is so powerful and sometimes I am frightened of the many challenges it can overcome, amazing.
I wish I could find that person, I have so much love to give and no one understands that, i wish someone would let me in. that's not all my thoughts on it, but I guess it's long enough, i could go for hours....
on another note, watched the band this weekend..Band kids...let me tell you how jealous I am of you. I miss being out on that field performing in front of a crowd, having all eyes on me, and getting that rush when they go wild, clap, and scream, filling those chills in your body, and the joy it feels to get first or sweepstakes. that's one my great passions that I don't think I will ever get rid of.
things to do: redoing my room, getting a pet, getting a job, and some things left unsaid..;)