Happy Fucking New Year

[days_gone]

God I can tell that this years gonna start off great...sarcasm
I'm already in a big fucking mess and I feel like such a fucking terrible person.
Can't I do anything right...
For the first time my crazy imagination came true but at the worst time!
Ugh why me?
I shouldn't be alone.
But I am
for once I got something I wanted, but...at a possible high cost.
I'm tired of being alone.
But that's all I'll ever be.
I have no more strength left
so I let my devil take me where it wants me
and right now it wants me under a knife.