Conversations with my Mother... I need to stop thinking about them...
Diane Nielsen
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAYNA PLEAZZZZE CONTACT ME YOUR MOMMY I LOVE LOVE LOVE YOU SO MUCH HAS CHANGED FOR THE GOOD! CONTACT ME BY EMAIL MEEHANFMLY@YAHOO.COM OR CALL (970) 669-1952 OR (970) 212-6474 PLEASE DAYNA YOU ARE SO LOVED!!!!!!!!
3/26, 1:15pm
Diane Nielsen
Dayna I am going to pursue YOU! I need you in my life! Sooo much good has happened! I want to give you & share with you all the blessings that are mine now, it will just blow you away! I send you love everyday. I miss you everyday. It is your Birthday and I pray that you will forgive me and PLEASE for the love that I have for you contact me or your Grandmother (818) 789-2118. Happy Happy Birthday my love, I have so many presents to give to You!
3/26, 1:55pm
Diane Nielsen
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAREST DAUGHTER, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!
Diane Nielsen
This is your MOTHER. I have been trying and trying to get a hold of you Honey, PLEASE for the love of all, contact me! It is so important! my email: meehanfmly@yahoo.com, phone (970) 669-1952, cell: (970) 212-6474
June 11, 2012
6/11, 11:46pm
Dayna Crosby
what do you want?
Diane Nielsen
Dayna, Thank You so much for your response. I live up in the Masonville area of Fort Collins now, Caregiving and I've purchased three rental propeties which I manage. I am sure you have seen the big fire that is presently going on up here, kindaof scarry. Sooo much good has happened. I want to share it all with you. I want you to know that Calley had a baby boy named Tayler. He will be two 6/30. I need to know that you are OKAY and if you need anything? I have divorced and cleaned up my life and am doing very well financially. I own my own business. If you need money or a job I would like to give that all to you. But I need you to communicate with me. PLEASE forgive me Dayna for my wrongs, my mistreatment of you, I deeply regret my pushing you away. YOU are my most valualble treasure and I know I hurt the thing I love the most. PLEASE find it in your heart to forgive me and give us another chance. If nothing else will you give me your email so I can email you? I really hate facebook. My email is: meehanfmly@yahoo.com. My cell: (970) 212-6474 My Home phone:(970) 669-1952. I LOVE YOU beyond all reason, even in my insainity I loved you, but know I am sane and everything is wonderful EXCEPT that I need you in my life. I am much older now and I have a very new life, probably the one I always should have had. The only thing missing is YOU. I litterly die a little every day for the lack of Dayna, you, in my life. Sooo take it slow, we can just start with emails, OKAY? PLEASE Dayna for the love of all the good things that are happening stay in contact and draw closer to me as I will to you, LOVE< LOVE>LOVE YOU, YOUR Mother PS your grandma needs a call from you, I do not know how much longer she will be around and you know she is hurt by your silence (even though I know we don't deserve you)
June 14, 2012
6/14, 3:04pm
Diane Nielsen
My Dearest Dayna, I am so excieted that you responded!! You made my life liveable today! PLEASE email me at: meehanfmly@yahoo.com YOU mean so much to me! ALL things have changed with me, for the better! I sent you a reply to your reply but don't know if I sent it correctly, that's why I want you to use the email. I'm better at it. I really don't understand how to make facebook work, and I do want to continue to communicate with you. I look upon your responding to me as the best birthday presant ever! THANK YOU, DAYNA. Speaking of which, I have at least two huge boxes of presants to send you. Yes, I have been buying you lots of things, just hoping I could send them to you, I LOVE YOU SO MUCH DAYNA, YOUR MOMMY
June 15, 2012
6/15, 7:52am
Diane Nielsen
Good Morning Dayna, What do I want? I want YOU! With all my heart I Love YOU, Your Mommy
Diane Nielsen
Just thinking about you! I have so many surprises for YOU! Please contact me by email, Your Mother
June 18, 2012
6/18, 11:13am
Diane Nielsen
Jerimie Spoke in Class today!
Oceans apart-Day after Day-and I slowly go insane from not hearing from you! I hear your voice on the line, but it dosn't STOP THE PAIN (from not hearing from you). If I see you next to never, but How can we stay apart FOREVER? WHERE EVER YOU GO, WHAT EVER YOU DO, I WILL BE RIGHT HERE WAITING FOR YOU! (for reals) WHAT EVER IT TAKES, OR HOW MY HEART BREAKS, I WILL BE RIGHT HERE WAITING FOR YOU!!!! I took for granted-All the times, that I thought would last some how....I hear the laughter, I taste the tears, BUT I CAN'T GET THROUGH TO YOU NOW (what can I do Dayna? to mend all the hurt I've caused you?). Oh can't you see it Dayna? You got me going crazy! Where ever you go, What ever you do, I will be right here waiting for you!!!! I wonder how I can survie, without you?? BUT in the end if I am with you-I will take the chance!!!! I will wait for your response forever. I do LOVE YOU so much DAYNA, I am sorry! Your Mother
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June 21, 2012
6/21, 8:52am
Diane Nielsen
My Dearest Dayna, Good Moring. As always I am thinking of what I can do to draw you close to me. Would a round trip ticket and ALL expenses paid (including your rent for a month or more) to come out and visit with me so you can see for your self this new wonderful life that I have made for myself be something you would consider? Money is not a problem, nothing is anymore except your not being in my life. I LOVE you Dayne, your Mother
June 24, 2012
6/24, 10:55am
Diane Nielsen
My Dearest Dayna, How are you doing? I wish you would communicate with me. I wish to know so much about you. Are you happy with your life? Are you doing okay financially? Is there anything that you will let me help you with, like money or a job or home? I have all these things to give you. Dayna today is your sister's Birthday. I know it would make her day if you would send her a text on facebook. I will send you her email address. She needs you in her life, we all need you in our lives. Your missing so much of Hailey & Tyler's lives. Forgive us, all of us Dayna. Hailey & Tyler (and the rest of us) need you in our lives, LOVE YOU SO MUCH, your Mother
6/24, 11:00am
Diane Nielsen
Calley_b@srgco.com
June 29, 2012
6/29, 5:27pm
Diane Nielsen
My Dearest One, Dayna I will be flying out to LA, tomorow, 6/30 for Tyler's 2nd BD. Would LOVE for you to join me!!! PLEASE call me on my cell (970) 212-6474. I love you more every day, your Mother
November 21, 2012
11/21, 10:38am
Diane Nielsen
My Dearest Dayna, Happy, Happy Thanksgiving! I am Thankful that you are my Daughter. Love You so much, Your Mommy
March 28
3/28, 11:13am
Diane Nielsen
My Dearest Dayna, Thinking about you so much lately. HAPPY HAPPY Birthday! Because I will be 60 years old this year I am sending every one on a two week cruise to Hawaii. I would like you to come too! But if your not ready I will send you tickets. Your grandmother is not doing well. You need to be back in the family Dayna. Your missing so much. Your nice, Hailey and your nephew Tayler need you . We all need you and want to mend our family. Dayna I have always loved you You are my heart. Forgive me and lets enjoy life together. Love you more than you will ever know, your Mother
3/28, 11:25am
Diane Nielsen
My Dearest Dayna, HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY! Soooo wish you would contact me. I am giving every one a two week cruise to Hawaii for their birthdays. I would like to send you your tickets. Do not know if you got my previous message regarding this. If not, your grandmother is not doning well she needs to see you. Your niece, Hailey and your nephew Tayler needs you. I need you back in the family. PLEASE Dayna forginve us and lets be a family. Love you more than you know, Love you, your Mother
Dayna Crosby
Why does grandma want to see me now? She and Calley don't care and never did care about me. I gave you all what you wanted I am gone from your lives, you never have to worry or be bothered by me ever again. THIS SHOULD MAKE YOU ALL HAPPY!!
3/28, 12:58pm
Diane Nielsen
Oh My Dearest One, YES WE DO CARE SO MUCH, WE ALWAYS HAVE. Our family got out of harmony. We made huge mistakes, I made very bad and wrong decissions, I lost my mind and I did wrong by you. If you were to listen to your Grandma she feels she did nothing wrong and dosen't understand why you hurt her so by not being in her life. The point being she wants you in her life. She did do wrong Dayna to you, we all wronged you and we treated you without respect and hurt you, but Grandma, Calley and me want to start afresh, move past the past to forgive and hopefully find the grace to forgive each other. Calley is replaying my life, always at work, 6 days a week. In tears Hailey told me she wants to go live under a bridge instead of having alll she has. She just wants her mommy. But Calley is making one of my mistakes, by working to much and not spending time with Hailey. Hailey needs you! Calley needs you. I am not whole without you, it's like my heart has a hole in it. Things will never be right till we are back in harmony. I am your Mother, I worry, worry, worry about you ever miniute of every day, and I want you to bother me, I want to know all about your life and that you are well and happy, that you have clothes, food, medical insur, housing, a car, a job etc. Tell me would you like a check for $5,000.00 or would you like to come on the cruise with the rest of us, or tell when you would like to go, and I will set up and buy you a cruise for two. THANK YOU, THANK YOU, SO SO SO MUCH DAYNA FOR RESPONDING, PLEASE, PLEASE LET ME KNOW HOW TO CONTACT YOU. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH, Your Mother
March 28
3/28, 5:39pm
Dayna Crosby
They don't care and don't want me in their lives they never have. YOU KNOW THIS BETTER THEN ANYONE!!! Last time we "tried to be a happy family" YOU WALKED OUT ON ME!!! you left me to go live in an RV and get high with your new husband and the rest could careless if I was alive. I begged, you begged for me to be back in Calley's life 7yrs or how ever long ago that was before you abandoned me and I did everything right, I called her and grandma all the time, I went out of my way to get back in their lives, I invited myself to everything, BUT NONE OF IT WAS GOOD ENOUGH FOR THEM, that just blew me off like always!! I CAN'T GO THOUGH THAT HEART BREAK AGAIN. I even dropped x-mas gifts off at Calley's for Xmas 4-5yrs back cause they could not take the time to even invite me to xmas dinner. Did I get a call, a letter, a card, or a simple thank you for the xmas gifts. NO, I GOT NOTHING!! AS USUAL I DON'T MATTER TO THEM. THEY DON'T CARE AND NEVER HAVE!!! If they really miss me and want me in their lives then why don't they write me or call or make an effort to show I do matter to them or even say sorry for pushing me out of their lives. Until they do I have nothing to say to any of them.
YOU ALL KICKED ME OUT OF YOUR LIVES!! I DID NOT DO THIS, YOU GUYS MADE THIS CHOICE and for grandma to be upset and think she did nothing makes me NEVER want to see her again. She has always played that card, fuck her and that. I DON't need this crap in my life. I don't need her money or guilt!!! AND YOU CAN TELL THEM BOTH THIS!!! THEY ARE TO BLAME NOT ME!!! WE TRIED TO BE A HAPPY FAMILY BUT THEY DIDN'T WANT ME IN THEIR LIVES!!! Dave & his mom were the only ones that were nice and acting like a family to me that entire time we "Tried" to be a family again!! They could not even invite me to Xmas dinner HOW FUCKED UP IS THAT!!!! that is why I left. I don't need people like that in my life.
3/28, 6:21pm
Dayna Crosby
oh and I still have your cat Tucker you also abandoned. He is fine. Healthy and Happy.
3/28, 8:39pm
Dayna Crosby
If they cared so much they would have called and asked to see me when I stopped calling and inviting myself over. They have not tried to contact me in years. They don't care and you better then anyone know this. Papa and you when you were not all strung out on drugs were the only ones who cared anything for me. I have not gotten a letter, bday card, phone call, from any of them in years. Dad sends me a card every year and he sends me a card every xmas. What is wrong with you people how can you all be so cruel. I don't even see or talk to him at all but he still sends them. I can't go back to them treating me like crap
3/28, 9:53pm
Diane Nielsen
Oh Dayna I would give my life if I could make all the pain and hurt and all the wrong and bad stuff, and bad decissions, ever thing wrong done to you by all of us, I would give anything to make it different, to make it whole between all of us agian. Everything you say is true and more. Time has changed all of us for the better Dayna. Grandma is near the end and she needs help and is alone and she just needs us all to be near her now. When I came back from my insanity the first thing I did was to try and find you. Know one had a good phone no. or an address for you. Vickie finaly showed me how to work facebook, she said after I used her computor and sent you a message you unfriended her. Good fortune has come my way since I have become sane. Sainity and the fortune make would never have happened if I had not come out here. So good has come out of evil. Calley has turned into me. She is stressed and tired, and not well since Tyler's birth. She hemmoraged and they removed her uterus. It changed her. Having kids changed her. She is very alone and she knows it. She has no family to help and support her. David is not a loving supporting husband. She would be better off without him. I know you can try again. You forgave your father and he never did anything for you. But I am glad he at last is sending you cards. I was wondering if he was still alive. Oh Dayna PLEASE don't give up on us. At least try baby steps with me so WE can start to repair and mend and be family. I love you so much. Things are differnt now, I am sane now, I am me now. PLEASE just let me in a little All I want to do is make you happy and take away your hurt and pain and show you things have changed and are new and the way it always should have been. PLEASE don't shut me out. I am committed to your happpiness and showing you things are now as they shoud be. Sleep well, don't stop communicatiing with me, it's like water to a thristy man. Find a full health Insurance plan and I will pay for it. OKAY? How about auto insur? Find the cruise you want to take have the travel agent call me and I will take care of the payment. If you would like I do have a travel agent and I know they would be delighted to help. So keep those messages coming. Dayna I beg your forgiveness. I am so ashamed. Since I can not go back and change the past, please lets move forward and change the future together. I LOVE, LOVE,LOVE you, Your Mother
Diane Nielsen
Good Morning Dayna, Just wanted you to know how much your communication means to me. I feel relived. I hope somewhere in your heart it's a relief to you also. I can't wait to hear from you! Have you seen a show titled "Too Cute"? It's about baby animals, mostly kittens and puppies. The opening shows a baby Mole being held in a girls hand and it is all currled up and kinda pops open when she opens her hand. Just Too Cute. It reminds me of something you would have and do. Are you still into wild life rescue? Also there is a show called "Supper Nanny". All I can think of is Where was Supper Nanny when our family needed her. I've learned alot about parenting from the show. I wish I could have had the knowledge when you were kids. My point being that I am well aware of my short commings as a Mom and I am much improved now. I pray you have a safe and wonderful day. I LOVE YOU, your Mother
3/29, 9:19am
Diane Nielsen
I keep reading and reading your words, savoring each one, each one of your thoughts, your hurts, your pain, your disappointment. I just want to shoot myself. sad face. Last summer at a solsist party, I attened, the hostest, whom claimed to be a psychic and I were talking and the subject of forgiviness came up and we agreed upon God's forgiving Grace, But I told her I have an impossible time forgiving myself, so she tried to argue the point that I had to forgive myself, I said my sins against my children are to great. I said to her that I shoud be shot. Your words brought this conversation back to my mind. I have felt so terrible for so long Dayna, I know you have too. It's time to mend.
March 30
3/30, 9:33am
Diane Nielsen
Good Morning Dayna, Just want you to know I wake every morning thinking of you and I pray you have a safe and wonderful day., Love you Mommy
March 31
3/31, 8:30am
Diane Nielsen
HAPPY HAPPY EASTER! Here's hopping that your bunny brings you sunshine and happiness today. Love you very much, Mom
April 1
4/1, 8:25am
Diane Nielsen
No April fools here! I Love you move today than yesterday. Have a wonderful day; Mommy
April 1
4/1, 11:37am
Diane Nielsen
I would be interested in what you did for Easter? I worked. Tyler woke everyone up with "The Easter Bunny came and it's Amazing"
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4/1, 11:45am
Diane Nielsen
I saw you with the bunny ears. Just Too Cuite!
April 4
4/4, 9:16am
Diane Nielsen
Good Morning, Thinking of you. I see your new picture. You do know that I am always here for you. I am your mother and I will always be here for you Dayna, I Love you very much
4/4, 9:22am
Diane Nielsen
This new picture. Very hard to see. It looks like there something all over your chest, and you do not look too happy. What's this picture about????
4/4, 10:08am
Dayna Crosby
You need to stop this. Leave me alone. You are crazy and I don't need people like you in my life
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAYNA PLEAZZZZE CONTACT ME YOUR MOMMY I LOVE LOVE LOVE YOU SO MUCH HAS CHANGED FOR THE GOOD! CONTACT ME BY EMAIL MEEHANFMLY@YAHOO.COM OR CALL (970) 669-1952 OR (970) 212-6474 PLEASE DAYNA YOU ARE SO LOVED!!!!!!!!
3/26, 1:15pm
Diane Nielsen
Dayna I am going to pursue YOU! I need you in my life! Sooo much good has happened! I want to give you & share with you all the blessings that are mine now, it will just blow you away! I send you love everyday. I miss you everyday. It is your Birthday and I pray that you will forgive me and PLEASE for the love that I have for you contact me or your Grandmother (818) 789-2118. Happy Happy Birthday my love, I have so many presents to give to You!
3/26, 1:55pm
Diane Nielsen
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAREST DAUGHTER, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!
Diane Nielsen
This is your MOTHER. I have been trying and trying to get a hold of you Honey, PLEASE for the love of all, contact me! It is so important! my email: meehanfmly@yahoo.com, phone (970) 669-1952, cell: (970) 212-6474
June 11, 2012
6/11, 11:46pm
Dayna Crosby
what do you want?
Diane Nielsen
Dayna, Thank You so much for your response. I live up in the Masonville area of Fort Collins now, Caregiving and I've purchased three rental propeties which I manage. I am sure you have seen the big fire that is presently going on up here, kindaof scarry. Sooo much good has happened. I want to share it all with you. I want you to know that Calley had a baby boy named Tayler. He will be two 6/30. I need to know that you are OKAY and if you need anything? I have divorced and cleaned up my life and am doing very well financially. I own my own business. If you need money or a job I would like to give that all to you. But I need you to communicate with me. PLEASE forgive me Dayna for my wrongs, my mistreatment of you, I deeply regret my pushing you away. YOU are my most valualble treasure and I know I hurt the thing I love the most. PLEASE find it in your heart to forgive me and give us another chance. If nothing else will you give me your email so I can email you? I really hate facebook. My email is: meehanfmly@yahoo.com. My cell: (970) 212-6474 My Home phone:(970) 669-1952. I LOVE YOU beyond all reason, even in my insainity I loved you, but know I am sane and everything is wonderful EXCEPT that I need you in my life. I am much older now and I have a very new life, probably the one I always should have had. The only thing missing is YOU. I litterly die a little every day for the lack of Dayna, you, in my life. Sooo take it slow, we can just start with emails, OKAY? PLEASE Dayna for the love of all the good things that are happening stay in contact and draw closer to me as I will to you, LOVE< LOVE>LOVE YOU, YOUR Mother PS your grandma needs a call from you, I do not know how much longer she will be around and you know she is hurt by your silence (even though I know we don't deserve you)
June 14, 2012
6/14, 3:04pm
Diane Nielsen
My Dearest Dayna, I am so excieted that you responded!! You made my life liveable today! PLEASE email me at: meehanfmly@yahoo.com YOU mean so much to me! ALL things have changed with me, for the better! I sent you a reply to your reply but don't know if I sent it correctly, that's why I want you to use the email. I'm better at it. I really don't understand how to make facebook work, and I do want to continue to communicate with you. I look upon your responding to me as the best birthday presant ever! THANK YOU, DAYNA. Speaking of which, I have at least two huge boxes of presants to send you. Yes, I have been buying you lots of things, just hoping I could send them to you, I LOVE YOU SO MUCH DAYNA, YOUR MOMMY
June 15, 2012
6/15, 7:52am
Diane Nielsen
Good Morning Dayna, What do I want? I want YOU! With all my heart I Love YOU, Your Mommy
Diane Nielsen
Just thinking about you! I have so many surprises for YOU! Please contact me by email, Your Mother
June 18, 2012
6/18, 11:13am
Diane Nielsen
Jerimie Spoke in Class today!
Oceans apart-Day after Day-and I slowly go insane from not hearing from you! I hear your voice on the line, but it dosn't STOP THE PAIN (from not hearing from you). If I see you next to never, but How can we stay apart FOREVER? WHERE EVER YOU GO, WHAT EVER YOU DO, I WILL BE RIGHT HERE WAITING FOR YOU! (for reals) WHAT EVER IT TAKES, OR HOW MY HEART BREAKS, I WILL BE RIGHT HERE WAITING FOR YOU!!!! I took for granted-All the times, that I thought would last some how....I hear the laughter, I taste the tears, BUT I CAN'T GET THROUGH TO YOU NOW (what can I do Dayna? to mend all the hurt I've caused you?). Oh can't you see it Dayna? You got me going crazy! Where ever you go, What ever you do, I will be right here waiting for you!!!! I wonder how I can survie, without you?? BUT in the end if I am with you-I will take the chance!!!! I will wait for your response forever. I do LOVE YOU so much DAYNA, I am sorry! Your Mother
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June 21, 2012
6/21, 8:52am
Diane Nielsen
My Dearest Dayna, Good Moring. As always I am thinking of what I can do to draw you close to me. Would a round trip ticket and ALL expenses paid (including your rent for a month or more) to come out and visit with me so you can see for your self this new wonderful life that I have made for myself be something you would consider? Money is not a problem, nothing is anymore except your not being in my life. I LOVE you Dayne, your Mother
June 24, 2012
6/24, 10:55am
Diane Nielsen
My Dearest Dayna, How are you doing? I wish you would communicate with me. I wish to know so much about you. Are you happy with your life? Are you doing okay financially? Is there anything that you will let me help you with, like money or a job or home? I have all these things to give you. Dayna today is your sister's Birthday. I know it would make her day if you would send her a text on facebook. I will send you her email address. She needs you in her life, we all need you in our lives. Your missing so much of Hailey & Tyler's lives. Forgive us, all of us Dayna. Hailey & Tyler (and the rest of us) need you in our lives, LOVE YOU SO MUCH, your Mother
6/24, 11:00am
Diane Nielsen
Calley_b@srgco.com
June 29, 2012
6/29, 5:27pm
Diane Nielsen
My Dearest One, Dayna I will be flying out to LA, tomorow, 6/30 for Tyler's 2nd BD. Would LOVE for you to join me!!! PLEASE call me on my cell (970) 212-6474. I love you more every day, your Mother
November 21, 2012
11/21, 10:38am
Diane Nielsen
My Dearest Dayna, Happy, Happy Thanksgiving! I am Thankful that you are my Daughter. Love You so much, Your Mommy
March 28
3/28, 11:13am
Diane Nielsen
My Dearest Dayna, Thinking about you so much lately. HAPPY HAPPY Birthday! Because I will be 60 years old this year I am sending every one on a two week cruise to Hawaii. I would like you to come too! But if your not ready I will send you tickets. Your grandmother is not doing well. You need to be back in the family Dayna. Your missing so much. Your nice, Hailey and your nephew Tayler need you . We all need you and want to mend our family. Dayna I have always loved you You are my heart. Forgive me and lets enjoy life together. Love you more than you will ever know, your Mother
3/28, 11:25am
Diane Nielsen
My Dearest Dayna, HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY! Soooo wish you would contact me. I am giving every one a two week cruise to Hawaii for their birthdays. I would like to send you your tickets. Do not know if you got my previous message regarding this. If not, your grandmother is not doning well she needs to see you. Your niece, Hailey and your nephew Tayler needs you. I need you back in the family. PLEASE Dayna forginve us and lets be a family. Love you more than you know, Love you, your Mother
Dayna Crosby
Why does grandma want to see me now? She and Calley don't care and never did care about me. I gave you all what you wanted I am gone from your lives, you never have to worry or be bothered by me ever again. THIS SHOULD MAKE YOU ALL HAPPY!!
3/28, 12:58pm
Diane Nielsen
Oh My Dearest One, YES WE DO CARE SO MUCH, WE ALWAYS HAVE. Our family got out of harmony. We made huge mistakes, I made very bad and wrong decissions, I lost my mind and I did wrong by you. If you were to listen to your Grandma she feels she did nothing wrong and dosen't understand why you hurt her so by not being in her life. The point being she wants you in her life. She did do wrong Dayna to you, we all wronged you and we treated you without respect and hurt you, but Grandma, Calley and me want to start afresh, move past the past to forgive and hopefully find the grace to forgive each other. Calley is replaying my life, always at work, 6 days a week. In tears Hailey told me she wants to go live under a bridge instead of having alll she has. She just wants her mommy. But Calley is making one of my mistakes, by working to much and not spending time with Hailey. Hailey needs you! Calley needs you. I am not whole without you, it's like my heart has a hole in it. Things will never be right till we are back in harmony. I am your Mother, I worry, worry, worry about you ever miniute of every day, and I want you to bother me, I want to know all about your life and that you are well and happy, that you have clothes, food, medical insur, housing, a car, a job etc. Tell me would you like a check for $5,000.00 or would you like to come on the cruise with the rest of us, or tell when you would like to go, and I will set up and buy you a cruise for two. THANK YOU, THANK YOU, SO SO SO MUCH DAYNA FOR RESPONDING, PLEASE, PLEASE LET ME KNOW HOW TO CONTACT YOU. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH, Your Mother
March 28
3/28, 5:39pm
Dayna Crosby
They don't care and don't want me in their lives they never have. YOU KNOW THIS BETTER THEN ANYONE!!! Last time we "tried to be a happy family" YOU WALKED OUT ON ME!!! you left me to go live in an RV and get high with your new husband and the rest could careless if I was alive. I begged, you begged for me to be back in Calley's life 7yrs or how ever long ago that was before you abandoned me and I did everything right, I called her and grandma all the time, I went out of my way to get back in their lives, I invited myself to everything, BUT NONE OF IT WAS GOOD ENOUGH FOR THEM, that just blew me off like always!! I CAN'T GO THOUGH THAT HEART BREAK AGAIN. I even dropped x-mas gifts off at Calley's for Xmas 4-5yrs back cause they could not take the time to even invite me to xmas dinner. Did I get a call, a letter, a card, or a simple thank you for the xmas gifts. NO, I GOT NOTHING!! AS USUAL I DON'T MATTER TO THEM. THEY DON'T CARE AND NEVER HAVE!!! If they really miss me and want me in their lives then why don't they write me or call or make an effort to show I do matter to them or even say sorry for pushing me out of their lives. Until they do I have nothing to say to any of them.
YOU ALL KICKED ME OUT OF YOUR LIVES!! I DID NOT DO THIS, YOU GUYS MADE THIS CHOICE and for grandma to be upset and think she did nothing makes me NEVER want to see her again. She has always played that card, fuck her and that. I DON't need this crap in my life. I don't need her money or guilt!!! AND YOU CAN TELL THEM BOTH THIS!!! THEY ARE TO BLAME NOT ME!!! WE TRIED TO BE A HAPPY FAMILY BUT THEY DIDN'T WANT ME IN THEIR LIVES!!! Dave & his mom were the only ones that were nice and acting like a family to me that entire time we "Tried" to be a family again!! They could not even invite me to Xmas dinner HOW FUCKED UP IS THAT!!!! that is why I left. I don't need people like that in my life.
3/28, 6:21pm
Dayna Crosby
oh and I still have your cat Tucker you also abandoned. He is fine. Healthy and Happy.
3/28, 8:39pm
Dayna Crosby
If they cared so much they would have called and asked to see me when I stopped calling and inviting myself over. They have not tried to contact me in years. They don't care and you better then anyone know this. Papa and you when you were not all strung out on drugs were the only ones who cared anything for me. I have not gotten a letter, bday card, phone call, from any of them in years. Dad sends me a card every year and he sends me a card every xmas. What is wrong with you people how can you all be so cruel. I don't even see or talk to him at all but he still sends them. I can't go back to them treating me like crap
3/28, 9:53pm
Diane Nielsen
Oh Dayna I would give my life if I could make all the pain and hurt and all the wrong and bad stuff, and bad decissions, ever thing wrong done to you by all of us, I would give anything to make it different, to make it whole between all of us agian. Everything you say is true and more. Time has changed all of us for the better Dayna. Grandma is near the end and she needs help and is alone and she just needs us all to be near her now. When I came back from my insanity the first thing I did was to try and find you. Know one had a good phone no. or an address for you. Vickie finaly showed me how to work facebook, she said after I used her computor and sent you a message you unfriended her. Good fortune has come my way since I have become sane. Sainity and the fortune make would never have happened if I had not come out here. So good has come out of evil. Calley has turned into me. She is stressed and tired, and not well since Tyler's birth. She hemmoraged and they removed her uterus. It changed her. Having kids changed her. She is very alone and she knows it. She has no family to help and support her. David is not a loving supporting husband. She would be better off without him. I know you can try again. You forgave your father and he never did anything for you. But I am glad he at last is sending you cards. I was wondering if he was still alive. Oh Dayna PLEASE don't give up on us. At least try baby steps with me so WE can start to repair and mend and be family. I love you so much. Things are differnt now, I am sane now, I am me now. PLEASE just let me in a little All I want to do is make you happy and take away your hurt and pain and show you things have changed and are new and the way it always should have been. PLEASE don't shut me out. I am committed to your happpiness and showing you things are now as they shoud be. Sleep well, don't stop communicatiing with me, it's like water to a thristy man. Find a full health Insurance plan and I will pay for it. OKAY? How about auto insur? Find the cruise you want to take have the travel agent call me and I will take care of the payment. If you would like I do have a travel agent and I know they would be delighted to help. So keep those messages coming. Dayna I beg your forgiveness. I am so ashamed. Since I can not go back and change the past, please lets move forward and change the future together. I LOVE, LOVE,LOVE you, Your Mother
Diane Nielsen
Good Morning Dayna, Just wanted you to know how much your communication means to me. I feel relived. I hope somewhere in your heart it's a relief to you also. I can't wait to hear from you! Have you seen a show titled "Too Cute"? It's about baby animals, mostly kittens and puppies. The opening shows a baby Mole being held in a girls hand and it is all currled up and kinda pops open when she opens her hand. Just Too Cute. It reminds me of something you would have and do. Are you still into wild life rescue? Also there is a show called "Supper Nanny". All I can think of is Where was Supper Nanny when our family needed her. I've learned alot about parenting from the show. I wish I could have had the knowledge when you were kids. My point being that I am well aware of my short commings as a Mom and I am much improved now. I pray you have a safe and wonderful day. I LOVE YOU, your Mother
3/29, 9:19am
Diane Nielsen
I keep reading and reading your words, savoring each one, each one of your thoughts, your hurts, your pain, your disappointment. I just want to shoot myself. sad face. Last summer at a solsist party, I attened, the hostest, whom claimed to be a psychic and I were talking and the subject of forgiviness came up and we agreed upon God's forgiving Grace, But I told her I have an impossible time forgiving myself, so she tried to argue the point that I had to forgive myself, I said my sins against my children are to great. I said to her that I shoud be shot. Your words brought this conversation back to my mind. I have felt so terrible for so long Dayna, I know you have too. It's time to mend.
March 30
3/30, 9:33am
Diane Nielsen
Good Morning Dayna, Just want you to know I wake every morning thinking of you and I pray you have a safe and wonderful day., Love you Mommy
March 31
3/31, 8:30am
Diane Nielsen
HAPPY HAPPY EASTER! Here's hopping that your bunny brings you sunshine and happiness today. Love you very much, Mom
April 1
4/1, 8:25am
Diane Nielsen
No April fools here! I Love you move today than yesterday. Have a wonderful day; Mommy
April 1
4/1, 11:37am
Diane Nielsen
I would be interested in what you did for Easter? I worked. Tyler woke everyone up with "The Easter Bunny came and it's Amazing"
download
Easter 2013 at Calleys.pdf
4/1, 11:45am
Diane Nielsen
I saw you with the bunny ears. Just Too Cuite!
April 4
4/4, 9:16am
Diane Nielsen
Good Morning, Thinking of you. I see your new picture. You do know that I am always here for you. I am your mother and I will always be here for you Dayna, I Love you very much
4/4, 9:22am
Diane Nielsen
This new picture. Very hard to see. It looks like there something all over your chest, and you do not look too happy. What's this picture about????
4/4, 10:08am
Dayna Crosby
You need to stop this. Leave me alone. You are crazy and I don't need people like you in my life