Sinful Kyuu
Faced with an inactive Saturday, I found myself in a rather sinful mind-state. Heck, over the years, I have been sinful. The difference this time comes from the thought and lesson from the 2nd Catechism session. The topic was sin and its nature. It was still rather fresh and was reviewed in my head.
As the course of this day went on, I simply felt my heart pierce. It was unnerving; and I did not like it. It left me confused as to how to stop, how to think, and how to feel.
To think, I woke up this morning feeling rather down on myself; and the same piercing was there. A call from my sister prior to sermon gave me a slight boost of cheer; but I still arrived at sermon rather down a bit. A sunny walk to church and some greetings helped - as well as the sermon itself.
Regardless, even after sermon, I still found myself knowing sinning - criticizing parts of a Catholic sermon. To think, I am this bad. On the bright-side, I can caught myself in progress this time - by citing Romans 2:1. But still... that was pretty bad.
Furthermore, I have carried years of sin on my back. Thankfully, that is in the process of being lifted as I consider my own past actions and admit them. I can mention that stuff here; but it won't be necessary. - unless I am using it as a citation for future lessons.
Instead, in summation, I have been extremely sinful, such that it'll require a good deal of work to "fix" all this. While the solution is simple - "trust in Jesus" - it's very easy to forget that during the course of the week. After all, that explains my own unrest during Saturday. The good news - I'm learning even to do just that.
By nature, I will presume the future need to continuously learn this lesson. Parts of me are still rather... bad. At least, it has begun; and work is in progress. In the end, I hope to be all better such that I do not necessarily require church Sunday to "lift sin" off myself - where I can just stop, think, and feel it. Once I do think and feel it; I'll be able to stop it on my own.
This'll take some practice so that it'll become second nature.
As the course of this day went on, I simply felt my heart pierce. It was unnerving; and I did not like it. It left me confused as to how to stop, how to think, and how to feel.
To think, I woke up this morning feeling rather down on myself; and the same piercing was there. A call from my sister prior to sermon gave me a slight boost of cheer; but I still arrived at sermon rather down a bit. A sunny walk to church and some greetings helped - as well as the sermon itself.
Regardless, even after sermon, I still found myself knowing sinning - criticizing parts of a Catholic sermon. To think, I am this bad. On the bright-side, I can caught myself in progress this time - by citing Romans 2:1. But still... that was pretty bad.
Furthermore, I have carried years of sin on my back. Thankfully, that is in the process of being lifted as I consider my own past actions and admit them. I can mention that stuff here; but it won't be necessary. - unless I am using it as a citation for future lessons.
Instead, in summation, I have been extremely sinful, such that it'll require a good deal of work to "fix" all this. While the solution is simple - "trust in Jesus" - it's very easy to forget that during the course of the week. After all, that explains my own unrest during Saturday. The good news - I'm learning even to do just that.
By nature, I will presume the future need to continuously learn this lesson. Parts of me are still rather... bad. At least, it has begun; and work is in progress. In the end, I hope to be all better such that I do not necessarily require church Sunday to "lift sin" off myself - where I can just stop, think, and feel it. Once I do think and feel it; I'll be able to stop it on my own.
This'll take some practice so that it'll become second nature.