Never thought I would miss it...
...but I do.
I severely miss being needed everyday. I don't know what it is... but this whole having nothing to do is almost depressing. Wait, it IS depressing. It may seem like I'm complaining over nothing, but it is the worst feeling ever knowing that you have absolutely no purpose for living this day. I wake up, everyone is off doing their daily duties and I... well, I.... let's see, I.... DON'T! It makes me instantly mad every time I wake up. I wish I was being depended on to get something done, I wish I had a group to go to, I wish I had an assignment to read. I whole-heartedly resent being plucked out of college a semester early and then put back here with nothing to do. I feel so worthless.. and that's because I am!
So, though I was so desperate to get back to Morris, now I'm teetering between hating it and mildly liking it. I feel like such a slob because the only thing I've done so far is watch TV. Woo. AHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. I can't even EXPRESS my frustration. This probably all sounds like annoying whining just to whine about something.... but I promise you, it's legitimate contempt for my life right now.
fuck.
I severely miss being needed everyday. I don't know what it is... but this whole having nothing to do is almost depressing. Wait, it IS depressing. It may seem like I'm complaining over nothing, but it is the worst feeling ever knowing that you have absolutely no purpose for living this day. I wake up, everyone is off doing their daily duties and I... well, I.... let's see, I.... DON'T! It makes me instantly mad every time I wake up. I wish I was being depended on to get something done, I wish I had a group to go to, I wish I had an assignment to read. I whole-heartedly resent being plucked out of college a semester early and then put back here with nothing to do. I feel so worthless.. and that's because I am!
So, though I was so desperate to get back to Morris, now I'm teetering between hating it and mildly liking it. I feel like such a slob because the only thing I've done so far is watch TV. Woo. AHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. I can't even EXPRESS my frustration. This probably all sounds like annoying whining just to whine about something.... but I promise you, it's legitimate contempt for my life right now.
fuck.